I always tell people that life is too short why make it any shorter then it already is
by smoking, drinking like a addict, speeding in the rain, driving a car that is unfit to be on the road due to bad breaks or what so ever, or thinking about death like you wanna get hit by a car and your car flips 360 degrees into the air and hits the ground then blows up or you wanna be in a coma after the accident just to see who cares for you. Being ashamed of myself, I used to wanna be in a coma just so that I could get away from life and what life had thrown to me and hopefully see who cares for me would come through my ward door. Silly of me isn't last time to have thoughts like that running through my head almost every night. High school wasn't hell for me but it sure ain't all that fun as most people had.
So when I hit college and starting working. I see things differently in a very slow manner. I start to mix around more with different circle of friends that might not click with my other circle of friends. I wanna be the person who doesn't have to choose who they befriends with. I wanna be the person who is able to mix with everyone. I never like to choose sides therefore I'm always on the fence if things comes up. Two is better than one. Lol
. These has nothing to do with my title.
Anyways, life is too short as it is already so I have a long list of what I wanna do before I moved on to their "other" world. My list isn't things that people can give it to me. But more like me getting it hands own all by myself or doing it with a bunch of friends or family. :)
Like to see/have,
my parents coming for my graduation and Ken's
a snow man being made
Like learn to/play,
Race and drift legally
Ride a bike not a bicycle
Lead a team of Sled dogs
Like backpacking to,
Africa and volunteer myself in any way to help
A few Asian country
with Ken and my friends.
Clubbing & Partying
White water rafting
to Jazz club/bar/pub
try out for Amazing Race
have a drive down KL after midnight with the car windows wind down and listen to music
Like to someday own a,
Beach house overseas
Studio for my work with all the shots gained from traveling
Full range lens for my Cammy
The Photographer for my family and friends 21th Birthday, wedding instead of the bridesmaid, anniversary, family portrait, and what ever that comes to mind in the future. Be at any special moment of their life and capture it to be simple.A bartender by night with a day jobA Coffee Master certify by Starbucks
But with all that have been listed out. Its not easy to make any one of them happen. Its not impossible. Its just gonna be tough for now. But I'm sure that once I'm in Australia most of them will happen and then itself is where my journey truly begins. What ever is happening now here in Malaysia is a stepping stone for me. :) Then if I do go Australia the hardest part would be leaving all my family and friends that I love. I bet I'm gonna cry my eye balls out during the day of departure. Don't laugh at me kay. I'm very much a emotional and soft person deep down inside.
So yeah. Life is way too short so why make it any less shorter by doing things that will harm us. And cherish the people around you. Don't always be the one that wants people to go all the way instead of you meeting them half way. Lastly, if you wanna do something and just have the experience go ahead and do it. Cause soon enough I will be doing it with courage and no fear! I've come this far to know that losing people in your life is so painful it hurts just by thinking back of the memories you have with them. Also knowing that you pass off a chance to do something or try new things will haunt you in years to come and you will ask yourself this very question in your head, What If?
There's a lot of things I wished I never do and wished I have taken the courage to do. If I had a time machine I would go back and change a few things specially changing myself to handle things much better but if I were to go back and make those changes. I doubt I would be here right now and go to know the people I come to care about no? Year 2009 is coming to an end. A few more months which means another semester for Uni Students then is the winter holiday which comes Christmas then New Year. I'm never the one whose picky cause I rather be pick then. Lol. Random statement there. I've lots to do to achieve every single one from my list above and with time passing it will only adds more stuff to the list.
So anyone wants to help me fulfill some of the stuff on my list like backpacking, go with me for Amazing Race, go get a license to bar tend and so on please do. :D for really random sake of me. I just realize I'm pretty loyal for my age no wonder my kind of animal is doggy! and I'm blur as a fish when it comes to many jokes that I come to understand really slow.
Over and out people. Its only 12:23am now. and I'm bored. :(
Stumble upon this song on 988 while my mom was showing me the new route to get the cleaner. This song kinda caught on to me specially the chorus part and it is composed by JJ Lin. JJ love songs weren't bad at least I liked them enough to have them on my sony player. I'm falling for the words on this songs but there's no reason why I'm falling for it. :)
by Joey Yung
I'm not afraid of whether or not you'll love me
I'm just afraid you think you love me
抓緊我 不算擁有 你總學不會放手
Holding on to me tight is not the same as having me; You can't seem to learn to let go...
I'm not afraid that you won't know how to love me
只怕你 把習慣 當作愛
I'm just afraid you've mistake habit and for love
You can't figure out what I want