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Come Away With Me, 11:55 PM, Saturday, May 30, 2009
Just My Luck eh?
My night is almost over and today was pretty fulfilling. Let's talk about the bad stuff that happen to me today first then move on to the happy and fun ones. Pictures will get it from someone later. *coughs coughs*My old bump finally died at the side of the road on my way to hostel to meet KM. Only that this time it didn't came back alive and it would use to. So yeah. I think the car just honestly hates or curse me. Cause when my dad and Marcus(my elder bro) drive the car nothing happens to them at least not breaking down and just die all a sudden. As for me I have so many break downs with this car I lost count. I hate driving this car cause if my friend is in the car with me and it did break down. I will go and dig a hole and hide it in. Damn memalukan k. So yeah. I waited almost an hour plus for everything to be done and I drove my mom's car to hostel.
So yeah. Hang around KM place for a while then we left to SEGI University College. We got lost for almost an hour. =D We went circles and circles instead of just goin straight. We have turn right and left and go straight and U-turn still we got lost. LOL. This is where I use the term So CLOSE yet so FAR! Hahaha. Bad luck wei. But it was fun. KM was stressed out I was too. Hahaha. In years or months or weeks to come we will think back and just laugh about it.
So yeah, after we got KM sisters we head down town. And I'm just gonna stop here cause I'm really sleepy and I got to wake up early to meet up with them again to go Sunway for ice-skating. :) Came back early tonight to go for our family dinner which we had steamboat. I'm so full! Lucky I didn't eat anything the whole day till dinner. So my whole Law family hang out in the living room watching videos of our NZ trip. And I let the rest of the family to try honey, fudge and cheese.
Alright people. Sorry if this post is sucky. I just wanna blog. And I'm gonna go sleep night so NIGHTS!
Come Away With Me, 7:22 PM, Friday, May 29, 2009
Even though I may love working at Starbucks and enjoy most of the moments I have here. But sometimes I wanna just sat Fark YOU la k. Damn it. I guess this is what partners get as our The Starbucks Experience. My manager pass me a loss and found phone just now when I was having my break cause the owners mom is calling. So I picked up and told her this phone was been lfet behind by whoever it is and she marah marah lagi say I'm a prostitue! And its a prostitute or hooker club! What The FARK is wrong with you la woman was running in my mind so many times and I wanted to yell back at her k. But instead I repeat myself that this is Starbucks Time Square till she finally realize I'm telling the truth and tone her voice down and say she will come pick it up. Fark you k. So freaking rude. My manager is on standby now with the phone to scold the fish out of her. Bloody hell. Argh.
Well I can say I kinda got all most of the experience already. I got yelled at for being a hooker or prostitute, check. I almost got complaint in black and white by a unreasonable customer who thinks money is everything, check. I have to deal with my partners mistakes by taking the fall, check. I've seen world war 1, 2,3 and 4 by collecting customer mess and table who eat like dogs, check. I've got customer throwing money at my face when making a payment, check. I made kids smile and go to their mommy saying, "Mommy mommy there is a smiley face on my drink. *big smile*", check. I see hot girls and guys almost every day since I started working, check. I got to know different types of people and being able to work with them and communicate with them just fine, check. I got whipped cream, coffee and every liquid you can find it Starbucks being poured and shoot at me, check. I have fun and a blast during my time here, check.
So yeah, experience here has its good and bad. And one more time. Fark You! Fish you! Argh.
Come Away With Me, 9:31 PM, Thursday, May 28, 2009
"Down and out is overrated And I need to be elevated Looking up is not enough No, I would rather rise above
So can you lift me up, Turn the ashes into flames Cause I have overcome More than words will ever say
And I've been given hope That there's a light on up the hall And that a day will come When the fight is won And I think that day has just begun."
Come Away With Me, 10:41 PM, Wednesday, May 27, 2009
I've just got slapped.
Come Away With Me, 3:42 PM,
Her new album is soon to be out A Fine Mess, indeed
Her new song, Angel
99 Times, also her new song
She's awesome. I've all her songs. Manhattan From The Sky, Inside Out, Sweet Sliver Lining, Who You Are Without Me, Playing With My Heart and Forever and Almost Alwaysare also her new songs. Downloading all her new songs currently. Not a lot know of her and not a lot like her. But what the heck. I don't care. So whatever. She's totally awesome. Kate Voegele is Mia Catalano people and she rocks in One Tree Hill and in all her songs as well!
Ps: I can't use any of my brother's SLR Lens! They are all to small to fit in! I miss Cammy. She's gonna miss my Orientation. :(
Come Away With Me, 3:41 PM,
It's Only Life
I can't help stop thinking about my future now. I've always have a plan but I don't think it is gonna be working out for me. It has finally dawn to me that tomorrow is my Uni orientation and that I finally have to damn put some back and work into the years to come if I were to make it to where I wanna go and do what I wanna do.
I've a whole long list of things I wanna do when I leave Malaysia and go to my whole new life over the other side. I never really worked hard for anything in my life which is a screw up for me. I've always been the average kinda of girl in almost everything in my life. I'm fine with that but that's no good and it ain't gonna work for me if I wanna go to Australia to further my studies. I know I can do it if I just can stay focus and put my back in it like how I used to plan my events and pour all my heart at it. I need that drive. I need that motivation. I need that courage. I need that determination and persistent!
I've got to make something out of myself. I don't wanna always be the person I am today who is just average and mean nothing to the world you know. I know I can be more than who I am today. I can do better. So why am I hesitating with my actions and decisions? God damn it. *sorry for using God name in vain here*Not like I'm a bodoh right. Sigh. Seeing Ash beating herself up and no one willing to give her the chance she needs to do her double degree she wants so badly just sucks.
Its only life, but we all are trying to make the best of it as we go along. Life is just unpredictable and well fact is we have to sometimes adjust and be flexible with it. If you want something, you just have to want it bad enough that's all. And I just have to want it bad enough to make it work. And Ash I've said all that I can say its up to you now. For you Ash if your reading this,
"Take your hesitance And your self-defense Leave them behind, it's only life Don't be so afraid Of facing everyday Just take your time, it's only life I'll be your stepping-stone No, don't be so alone Just hold on tight, it's only life
Don't look away Don't run away It's only life Don't lose your faith Don't run away Its only life Yea, it's only life." by Kate Voegle
Wish you were, bad enough
Come Away With Me, 4:45 PM, Tuesday, May 26, 2009
It was really fun back then. All of us back at KLP. Practically family. G would always make noise and sound effects where we have war on floor and throw ice cubes like crazy. We would play football too. He would always check girls out and tell me that they are hot. With Chris, she would always sing Jay Chou or Lee Shen Jie songs and I would sing it with her.
Back then it was really just pure fun and we all just like to keep each other company and not be bored. :) That was my summer'08. Now summer is approaching again. No summer party like last year. Julie is still my manager. I miss Dee too cause she too check hot girls out always and will always tell me how she would get their numbers. Eddie is G best bud along with Vannan.
This year summer will definitely be different. I'm here on my break. I'm bored. And I see loads of customer coming in. I go to get back to work now even though my break isn't over yet. I want more customer. Keep in coming people! Summer is already here people!
Come Away With Me, 9:03 PM, Monday, May 25, 2009
My face is no more a virgin. No more a virgin I tell you! Mom made a appointment for me for facial today. It hurts so bad. I was in pain of Aunty May poking each and every pores she can find! And the pimples on my face now are reddish! And the black pores on my nose is no that visible no more. But what the hell! How could girls or women go for facial if its this pain excruciating.
It took Aunty May like an hour plus to do whatever she was doing with my face. I know there was needle involve and some other tools to poke right into my face and force out whatever she was poking. And so my face now where my forehead, cheeks and nose is reddish than before. Hopefully the swelling goes off tomorrow before my shift at work starts or else customer will be looking at my face. Aunty May practically messages my face so hard it felt like a body message instead of a facial. I don't feel any different after the facial on my face so yeah. In my head through out the whole one hour plus I was saying Fuck Fuck Fuck in my head and Ouch Ouch Ouch. It wasn't enjoyable or relaxing. Pifft.
Anyways, that's my day for today. My weekend was bad either. Hang out with KM on Friday after her class and I got my offer letter to start my degree in business. KM and I head down town to watch Angels & Demons and Night At The Museum 2 in Pavillion. We ate random stuff we come upon or can think of. So it was junk food hunting for us both.
I finally get to be on floor alone, handling the cashier, food and drinks and taking care of the bar area all alone on Saturday but Julie was really kind enough to borrow me to Border's Sbux so they could carry out their monthly partner meeting. And I can finally call myself a barista as I finally used a La Marzocco. Its Sbux manual function espresso machine! I have yet to perfect my drinks with La Marzocco though. But I was proud of myself for being able to handle being on floor alone doing everything myself. I guess that was what Julie wanted me to do. Its heck of an experience that I would never regret.
Cammy eyes are being taken to repair! Cammy lens to be exact. I still do not get why Cammy's auto-focus is screwed up! Sheesh. Anyways, Sunday was AWESOME! I love being back at BTS1 to work. I love the rush! The non-stop flow of drink orders is just what I needed to make my day. I'm weird I know. :) Yesterday was really busy and I had fun being busy. LOL. Haven't see G and Julie since our last partner meeting. Sbux is having 5 new juices, 8 new range of cakes and new sandwiches as well! Yay! Arab season is coming meaning to say its every Sbux outlet in KL biggest monthly sales! Wheeee. Meaning to say I might get more OT and work even more. YES! YES! YES!
Ken's in LA already. My orientation is this Thursday. I've weekend plans already too. I need to go shower now. So yeah. I have to stop procrastinating to blog about NZ already. Truth is, I haven't even delete and pick out the best photos yet. :(
Come Away With Me, 9:16 PM, Thursday, May 21, 2009
Law's & Birthdays
The title says in all really but it a vague way. This morning got woken up by mom to jaga the cleaner once again at 8:30am and I slept at around 4:15-ish in the morning? So yeah. Not just that I got lectures and nagging while she was down stairs telling me how I should take care and clean up the house and not wait for her to tell me only I go do and blablabla etc etc etc. And it so happens I accidentally texted the wrong cleaner our home address. So I got shouted by mom early morning in my room. What a super good way to start the day off right. Bah.
So its cool. I manage to let her go on with what she do best picking out my wrongs and flaws while I lay on my bed thinking how my life suck right now. And I just realize why I wanted so much to stay away from home when I can and whenever I can. I rather go work and have more OT without pay then to stay home. I rather be at college and having to stress over assignments and exams. My home isn't all that perfect I know but really I feel like all I come home to is just to my room to my bed or to the computer room where I go online. Period.
Have I mention how much I hate daily routines? I can not sit put and do the same things over and over again everyday. I will go nuts I tell you. When I say my life sucks is because my parents only picks out the worst in me and never praise me when I do something right but rather I get lectures of how I do things to my whim and fancy or that I'm so temperamental. I don't know what hurts most but yeah. It hurts when my dad says I'm temperamental and I don't have a say when they just comes home in a bad mood and talks in stressing high tone at me now do I? He tells me these days a lot that I'm so temperamental. Argh. It just irritates and pisses me off. Like why must he always say that! Ahhhh!
I didn't wish mom Happy Birthday this morning. I wanted too but just before I could wish her I get lectures and I end up having to listen to my dad says that I treat friends better than family in the car just now when they got home. Well, I'm sorry if I didn't wish mom happy birthday. Anyways, we went out for dinner near our place and I sneak out to get the bill just before dad could. So it was my gift to mom and dad. I have to tell you, Law's and birthday do not go along. Seriously, we never take birthday seriously nor anything for the fact, yet my parents wants us all to go travel and spend family time when we can really just do it at home for a starter. So when I get presents for friends or go out and celebrate with them I will get the treat your friends better than family kinda of crap all over again. Not like I didn't suggest we go out for dinner and celebrate or lets go get a cake when it was any of our birthday in the family.
I don't have a mom who is like a best friend or friend to me. I don't have a father who tries to understand that it is okay for me to show my temper once a while and not being taken as a spoil brat. My parents are tough. Tough enough to keep me and my siblings in line and best part is, we 3 siblings all have their personality and character. :] My parents raise us up well. Well enough to stay out of trouble and be single still till now for the 3 of us.
I don't hate my parents not intentionally though. But they just got to stop thinking that they have a say in everything and that only their way of thinking is right while my thinking and everything else is nothing and I have no say it in what so ever. I'm 19 and I'm not a little girl no more. I can't have them not trying to understand me but yet wants me to be someone who they want me to be. So yeah, I definitely miss Ken and Marcus cause some how they will always defend me or at least be there to stop the tears from flowing down my eyes at this very moment like how they used to do.
I'm pretty much the weakness in my family and very emotional. To my parents I'm the rebellious one among all 3 of us and yet they can't seem to see that I'm so much like them in reality. And that there and then scares me the most.
Happy Birthday Mom I Love You
Come Away With Me, 12:27 AM, Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Me and Rachel are probably out of our minds right now but I think we have a story to tell. Actually is more like I'm the one providing the photos and Rachel writing the story. Well Rachel and I were chatting on messenger she asked me to write a story of,
"70 days. 14 weeks. 3 different stages of relationship. Seasons of a semester."
Does that gives any of you a rough idea of how the story will go already? Its so like a chick flick story book I tell you. LOL. But I suck at writing and I have sucky vocabs so I push it back to Rachel and ask her to write it instead. And so she agreed. Well there's nothing to agree on the first place since it was her idea after all ma. xD Rachel your the best! Hahaha. So yeah, 3 different stages of relationship. Imagine if the focus was on me n KM. Or the 4 horny buggers! LOL! So yeah, no worries it's not gonna be that way I think. Rachel and I won't get ourselves killed by offending anyone. Its gonna be an all rounder kind of thing to keep things interesting and funny.
Just so you know, Rachel hasn't really plan it all out yet the story outline and the plot and all. :) It's gonna take a while so yeah. Stay tune for that interesting story. The 1st page she wrote was already funny enough. It's definitely gonna bring back memories once everyone starts their degree. So yeah.
Anyways, I stumble upon my high school plastics blog. They haven't change much instead more foundation? More clubbing? Don't take it the wrong way. Some plastics have attitudes and way more character than they do. So yeah. No everyone can be a plastic and get away with it in style. Okay. Way too much 90210 and Gossip Girl for me already. Night people!
Come Away With Me, 9:21 PM, Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Haka Although the use of a Haka by the All Blacks has made one type of haka familiar, it has led to misconceptions. Haka are not exclusively war dances, nor are they only performed by men. Some are performed by women, others by mixed groups, and some simple Haka are performed by children. Haka are performed for various reasons: for amusement, as a hearty welcome to distinguished guests, or to acknowledge great achievements or occasions (McLean 1996:46-47). War haka (peruperu) were originally performed by warriors before a battle, proclaiming their strength and prowess in order to intimidate the opposition. Today, Haka constitute an integral part of formal or official welcome ceremonies for distinguished visitors or foreign dignitaries, serving to impart a sense of the importance of the occasion.
Various actions are employed in the course of a performance, including facial contortions such as showing the whites of the eyes and the poking out of the tongue, and a wide variety of vigorous body actions such as slapping the hands against the body and stamping of the feet. As well as chanted words, a variety of cries and grunts are used. Haka may be understood as a kind of symphony in which the different parts of the body represent many instruments. The hands, arms, legs, feet, voice, eyes, tongue and the body as a whole combine to express courage, annoyance, joy or other feelings relevant to the purpose of the occasion.
The All Blacks used to perform Ka Mate and now since 2006 against Ireland they used Kapa o Pongo as well. I think HAKA dance is awesome specially for War Cry for camps. Its very motivational and hyper and not to mention really loud and pretty cool if and if you can pull it off. :)
Ka Mate Ka mate, ka mate! ka ora! ka ora! Ka mate! ka mate! ka ora! ka ora! Tēnei te tangata pūhuruhuru Nāna nei i tiki mai whakawhiti te rā Ā, upane! ka upane! Ā, upane, ka upane, whiti te ra!
*translation* ’Tis death! ‘tis death! (or: I may die) ’Tis life! ‘tis life! (or: I may live) ’Tis death! ‘tis death! ’Tis life! ‘tis life! This the hairy man that stands here... …who brought the sun and caused it to shine A step upward, another step upward! A step upward, another... the Sun shines!
Kapa o Pongo Kapa o Pango kia whakawhenua au i ahau! All Blacks, let me become one with the land Hī aue, hī! Ko Aotearoa e ngunguru nei! This is our land that rumbles Au, au, aue hā! It’s my time! It’s my moment! Ko Kapa o Pango e ngunguru nei! This defines us as the All Blacks Au, au, aue hā! It’s my time! It’s my moment! I āhahā! Ka tū te ihiihi Our dominance Ka tū te wanawana Our supremacy will triumph Ki runga ki te rangi e tū iho nei, tū iho nei, hī! And be placed on high Ponga rā! Silver fern! Kapa o Pango, aue hī! All Blacks! Ponga rā! Silver fern! Kapa o Pango, aue hī, hā! All Blacks!
Taringa whakarongo! Let your ears listen Kia rite! Kia rite! Kia mau! Hī! Get ready...! Line up...! Steady...! Yeah! Kia whakawhenua au i ahau! Let me become one with the land Hī aue, hī! Ko Aotearoa e ngunguru nei! New Zealand is rumbling here Ko Kapa o Pango e ngunguru nei! The Team in Black is rumbling here Au, au, aue hā! I āhahā! Ka tū te Ihiihi Stand up to the fear Ka tū te Wanawana Stand up to the terror Ki runga ki te rangi, To the sky above! E tū iho nei, tū iho nei, hī! Fight up there, high up there. Yeah! Ponga rā! The shadows fall! Kapa o Pango, aue hī! Team in Black, yeah! Ponga rā! Darkness falls! Kapa o Pango, aue hī, hā! Team in Black, Yeah, Ha!
Come Away With Me, 11:55 AM,
"At the end of the day, when it comes down to it, all we really want is to be close to somebody. So this thing, where we all keep our distance and pretend not to care about each other, is usually a load of bull. So we pick and choose who we want to remain close to, and once we’ve chosen those people, we tend to stick close by. No matter how much we hurt them, the people that are still with you at the end of the day – those are the ones worth keeping. And sure, sometimes close can be too close. But sometimes, that invasion of personal space, it can be exactly what you need."- Meredith, Grey’s Anatomy
*I grab this from Ameera's blog btw*
Angeline used to have this exact same words by Meredith in her blog. So yeah. I like what Meredith said here in the episode and I fall for it when Angeline post it up and it hit me when I read it again in Ameera's blog. *bang n PIAK on my face*
I used to have little people invading my personal space cause I don't wanna be close to anyone. You know where I have my defense mechanism on 24/7 and just build up that wall that is so thick I myself just got trapped in it. I guess I've come a long way from those days those hunting past. :)
I changed a lot I would dare to admit. I don't know yet if it's a bad thing or a good thing still but I'm gonna figure it out when the times comes cause then I would know it's the right time. College is definitely different from high school. I've met different people and all are my friends one way or another. It doesn't matter what size or height they are. It doesn't matter what skin colour they are. It doesn't matter how loud, funny, boring or scary serious they are.
Wonder how would it end up if I pick and choose my friends? Hmmmm.. I don't think I will ever end up where I am now and be the person who I am now I guess. My mom thinks I should pick and choose my friends and then categorize them into 4 sections. Trust me you do not wanna know how she does it. :)
Why pick and choose from the beginning anyway? Isn't it a blessing and a tribute to know the people you have known now? Gah. Anyways. I really love the above quote a lot. So yeah, think it through a lil bit and maybe you would see what I see no? :)
Come Away With Me, 7:57 PM, Monday, May 18, 2009
Mud of both of our faces
The Sexylicious is still a family to us
He always like to make his presence with a big bang
Do we both really look alike? Please don't tell me it's the glasses -.-"
I miss his bitchy faces. and the Cheerleader ones as well
They both add up are Couple Model material I tell you
See la their chemistry together :) They both love to sing and they used to record their songs together
Ken and Eva. The cheerleaders
A trip down to memory lane here these days. I miss days where I come home from school or college where Ken is home with me. It's a real bummer you know. Ken isn't here now when I'm having my holidays and with me not working on the weekdays. My place is pretty empty and quiet. I can't stand being home alone not when I know that Ken isn't here to fight me over the computer!
We would used to call Vina over for pizza then both he and her will be upstairs singing while I'm downstairs watching TV. I miss those times. It sucks big time. Now, here I am blogging about this makes it all that hard to stay home doing nothing! Wanna go out with friends also all busy. sigh. You know, Ken would out of the blue sing and dance and be all bitchy and cheerleader-ish. Haha. I miss those part of me so much cause it's entertaining. I have a awesome brother I KNOW!
Ken won't be back for CHEER 2009! Its the only time me and him sort of hang out together and its like our thing where I will be the audience cheering he and his team on like crazy shit ass while he performs! Ken sings, dances, cheers, reads and jokes. Why doesn't he have a girlfriend yet. Wait, Vina and Abby will keel any girl who even taught of being his girlfriend and stare them down straight away. LOL.
Ken is every one type of person. He loves the attention. He loves himself basically. And now he doesn't wanna come home from USA! Damn la that bugger. Everyone back home misses him like crazy. Specially me and my parents. I can't wait for him to come to HELP and study! That way Eva, Ken and I will always hang out then we will definitely drag Aileen along since she's at HELP too then Elaine as well.
I've been going down memory lane haven't I since I got back from NZ. I'm bored as hell here at home! Laying down on my bed looking at my ceiling and end up falling asleep then waking up knowing I got nothing to look forward to. I used to wake up looking forward to go college and hang out with friends. Now its just a empty house I wake up too. :]
I'm not falling to pieces just yet. So yeah. I finish another chick flick book I found in Ken's room just within 2 days. Ken loves chick flicks. He forced me to read them last time and I got addicted to it till I couldn't let it down. I think all my closest friend is Ken's closest friend too. Like Vina, Sabrina, Qian, Ming Wai, Keith, Abby, Nisha, Sher Wen and Sheena. All from camp. We are tight like a family weren't we during camps and outings. F*ck! I miss them all again now. Sheesh..
Come Away With Me, 11:33 PM, Sunday, May 17, 2009
All Blacks HAKA
Kapa o Pango
Toyato Rugby World Cup 2007
Bring It Home
The Story of the HAKA
Black is Thicker than Blood
For the Glory of their Nation They bring it home With pain they got
They became a team of
I don't know about what you guys think. But rugby isn't all about muscles and no brain. It's about the spirit that one puts in to play. It's the team that brings it home not an individual. It's the passion you have for the sport. It's the fast reflex and pain tolerant that gets you into the game.
New Zealand All Blacks proves all of that. I'm in All Black fever now people. They are simply just awesome. And the Kiwis love the All Blacks to death. They are their champs. Watching the videos above I got addicted to their HAKA dance. The dance gave me goose bumps! It also pretty much gave me some energy to fight and to bring it for whatever may come in the future.