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Come Away With Me, 12:08 PM, Monday, August 31, 2009
What makes a person good? What makes a person decent? What makes a person knows that they have people who take advantage of who they are? What makes a person stick with people who don't appreciate your kindness and takes it for granted?
Till this day to me it hasn't really hit me hard enough to make me fall on my ass and say I have enough of this crap. Till this day I've only heard a few ones who cared enough to let me know not to be too nice, too easy going, too anything when around everyone. On Saturday itself my brother told me that he dislike some of my friends cause they take me for granted. He thinks I shouldn't be that 'cincai' when I go out with friends. I guess I inherited this trait from my dad. I don't care honestly if my friends take me for granted or like remembers what I did and repay it to me. I don't care cause I'm numb towards trying to figure out who truly cares and who doesn't or who appreciates my actions or who treats me as a real friend. If I were to pick and choose then I wouldn't be me. I can't be like some of you who rather wait for people to make the 1st move or pick and chooses your friend. I can't be mean when I'm angry. I can't be sarcastic enough to actually hurt people feelings. I more like the person who didn't intentionally wanna hurt somebody but still hurt somebody without knowing how or when I did it.
I just wanna be me and go with the flow no matter who I am with. I can be with sucky using you kind of friends but I still wanna be me. I don't wanna keep score of who treats me this and that way. Its so pointless and childish. It isn't my lost for not appreciating things its theirs. It would only be my lost if I change my principle the very one I stand on since I could remember when. I'm not your average kind of girl. I don't wanna be your average kind of girl. This is seriously random and just retarded of me. I'm bored as hell here in Starbucks cause I misread my schedule that I was suppose to come in for work at 1pm not 11am.
"There are days that make the sacrifices seem worthwhile. And then there are the days where everything feels like a sacrifice. And then there are the sacrifices that you can’t even figure out why you're making. A wise man once said – “You can have anything in life if you’re willing to sacrifice everything else for it.” What he meant is nothing comes without a price. So before you go into battle, you better decide how much you’re willing to lose. Too often going after what feels good means letting go of what you know is right. And letting someone in means abandoning the walls you’ve spent a lifetime building. Of course the toughest sacrifices are the ones we don’t see coming. When we don’t have time to come up with a strategy to pick sides… Or to measure the potential loss. When that happens, when the battle chooses us, and not the other way around, that’s when the sacrifice can turn out to be more than we can bear."
I may not have many true friends that will stay with me in life but at least I'm one of them who tries to keep them in my life as long as I possibly can and I don't hold back.Things don't just happen if you just wish for it. Life certainly don't go the way you want it to be just by sitting there. I don't care if being doing what I do now is putting me in a losing game. Maybe I just have to wait for the day that really something or someone would hit me hard enough to make me fall flat ass on the ground then would I be willing to change my ways. For now, its back to stoning away here till I start my shift. 3 days working in a row and in this puasa period is shit ass boring as hell. :(
Come Away With Me, 7:48 PM, Saturday, August 29, 2009
Melody the Laughing Gas
11am-1pm, Starbucks SabangJaya, INTI
While waiting for Ken the GREAT KING for his orientation to be done I was passing my time at Starbucks having my favourite drink, Iced Venti Caramel Macchiato and went online to Facebook and watch Changeling but didn't manage to finish so I took some shots of things around me or basically what ever that is right in front of me. :)
Starbucks madness I know. After this is Melody reunion.
Sunway Pyramid, 1:30pm-4:40pm
Lunch again 2 days in a row. Chicken Sandwich again. :) All the way from Louisana.
You know in a circle of friends we would surely have a friend who laughter will just make you go HAHA or LOL for no reason but just a laughter alone? I like to call it the laughing gas or contagious laugh. And our dear Melody Leong who is 2 years older than me is that kind of friend. She takes her studies seriously but her laughter is madness contagious! Like my cousin Mun Mun who actually introduce Melody to me and Ken. Melody is back from the UK, Cardiff in Law Degree.
So met up in SunwayPiramid where Keith, Qian, Sabrina and TikTsin were already full and done with lunch. Leaving me and Ken to hunt for lunch. We just sat and talk. Catching up mostly. Talk, laugh then some will go The Weather ah.. cause they can't tune in the same channel on topics they don't know well. So blablabla. We went home at 4:45pm and we're meeting up next Friday again just for dinner and more talking and catching up before Melody flies off. :)
Anyways. Some of you guys might notice something extra in my photos. Don't worry. Its not a line draw by me saying my work is farking awesome or I'm showing off thinking I'm pro or what ever. I'm just doing it for the fun of it. So please do go ahead and use my photos if you want them without the watermark just buzz me I will send you the original ones. No biggy. So yeah. Thanks to those who help me get off the fence bout this watermark issue that got me thinking quite a bit. :)
Come Away With Me, 12:27 PM, Friday, August 28, 2009
For the step to step video of this dance watch it HERE.
This dance would most probably be in this year end KYC'09. :) If we manage to pull it off it will be freaking AWESOME. Its gonna be tough to learn moreover teach it to the participants when it comes. But its the experience and laugh that comes which makes all the effort, patience and hard work worth while. I miss camp. And I'm only 3 months away from it. Out away from the city for 4 days 3 nights and be with friends whom I don't see often through out the year. Doing obstacles, challenges and campfire with them will be just another awesome way to greet the seasonal holiday of Christmas.
Come Away With Me, 11:16 PM, Thursday, August 27, 2009
Moooo Moooo Madness
Happy Belated Birthday Jia :D
All good things comes last right?
Sorry for taking our own 'sweet' time.
Mooo Mooo. Cowbell madness wei when I used Cammy.
To: Jia The ROCKSTAR 2009
From: Karmun and Natalie
Come Away With Me, 6:26 PM, Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Like I Am
Me, Ni Ni & the WOMAN, Vina
Its no surprise that me, Natalie Law loves to sleep till 2pm but before nightmares could do its job where I would just jolt up in cold sweat I get a call from my lovely sister Praevina who kept saying, "wake up.. wake up. WAKE UP! WAKE UP! you know what time is it ah? Its 2pm. WAKE UP WAKE UP. *press the phone number in hope to wake me up*" Then when those doesn't help cause all my reply was uhhhh.... ahhhhh... uhhhhhhhh. xD Then she went and did something that really made me go WTH! WTF! she played Bob Marley- Dont Worry Be Happy song to wake me up. Gosh. I swear to you I love her this much to a certain point where I think she loves me just as much as well just to irritate and annoys the jingles out of me. Well, what better way to wake up to a Bob Marley song right? To my lovely sister whom I love even though I can never see you as often as I wish and you always rejected my invites. I love you very much through it all. :) And WOMAN! You have to stop saying you can't come or your not free! My skin is not getting any thicker. xD So WOMAN have fun in IPOH! Love ya sis.
This weird hobby and urge to go and whenever it rains ought to stop. But there's the part where I don't wanna miss out of the feeling surging through my body whenever I aim for the hoop and seeing the ball circling the hoop a few rounds before dropping down and hit the floor and water splashes everywhere.
Here we go this addiction, wanting every minute to last as long as possible. But my life is pretty much like a storm. It comes and it goes. I don't care about tomorrow cause right now I want the black dark clouds to come back and give me what I want. Being wet now is not enough. I haven't been playing in the rain for really long time and part of me want it to last cause its the only time I get to feel like I'm back where I was 2 years ago.
Now it has come to an end and with the rain gone. Skies is starting to clear off and I'm back to me again Natalie Law Wen Ni, the present. Its good right me having this weird hobby? I don't think any friends would do this with me even though I ask. But hey who cares. I love it and I feel good while I'm at it. Its gonna be in my to do list. Play in the rain more often!
And there's just a song that is exactly how I feel now metaphorically speaking of course.
Here We Go Again by Pixie Lott
All my friends are going out but I've been thinking maybe I better stay in bed The ceiling's spinning round like I've been drinking I've got this banging in my head
boom boom boom boom I need my-yy medicine and the cure ain't Aspirin
I don't care about tomor-o-o-oh here we go again, here we go again I'll be the last one on the dance flo-o-o-or when this party ends, when this party ends I don't even care (NO!), I don't even care (NO!) Never wanna stay I I wish that I was there
I sleep through the alarm head under pillow I know I'm gonna pay for this I can't stand missing out so when you call me, call me I say okay if you insist
boom boom boom boom I need my-yy medicine and the cure ain't Aspirin I don't care about tomor-o-o-oh here we go again, here we go again I'll be the last one on the dance flo-o-o-or when this party ends, when this party ends I don't even care (NO!), I don't even care (NO!) Never wanna stay I I wish that I was there.
Come Away With Me, 4:48 PM,
Here We Go Again
You know how is it when you read a friends blog that it makes you feel somewhat the same and then you wanna just go do certain things just to get back that feeling you used to feel years back. I do. I read V, KM and Ken's blog and have this jolt of energy and motivation to do things that I used to do back in high school or feel what they are going through cause I've been there and done that. So that's what I did just now when it was raining. Changed into proper clothes and went to the court outside my house. Its been a while since I step on that very court. I used to do it with Patrick, Turtle, Worm and Huey Yin. We would play 3 on 3 just for the fun and laugh.
I played while it was pouring and I played till the court dried up. 3 kids came back out to play mini golf after the rain stop then for some reason they head back in to their home and came out with a Spalding basketball in hand. I shoot my hoops they shoot theirs till one of the girl asked, "姐姐，你打篮球得吗?" So I said yes, but back when I was in high school only not anymore.*in ChineseSo I continue shooting then the other girl ask another question, "你去哪个小学? 中学呢? 你代表的校队得吗姐姐?" So I answer their question. Its nice knowing once a while your actions can get people to do the same thing even though you don't intend too and it usually surprises you. I miss a few things that I don't get to do no more now. Playing basketball for one, I miss the ridiculous burning hot training under the sun and you can feel your shoes heating up and your sweating like your in the shower and the feeling when you score a shot. and your team captain isn't happy that we couldn't get a few skills right and she would push us like crazy till we get it and get us out of class just to gain extra practice time. Then there is bowling that I used to do a lot after school just to get the edge off and release some of those bottled up feelings and anger. We would played non stop lane to lane, game after game. My longest bowling game was 12 rounds back to back with a few lanes combine. So we would go running through each lane to bowl till our arms would just sore but it was good times.
Life now is good but I always wanted to keep the old habits but I never could keep the old friends. Oh well. Its life. People come and go so does friends. It looks like its gonna rain again which it better cause I wanna go out there again. Screw my head and the pain. It felt really good being out there in the rain. I miss my old friends. I miss some part of my past. And to you who has the power to motivate people or make people feel somewhat the way you feel, I say your a pretty darn good blogger and writer. :)
Come Away With Me, 11:38 AM, Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Ken got me the keychain from NYC. He thought he lost it and he was pretty bumped out about it cause he says its perfect and he really loved it. So mom found it in her Couch pouch that Ken bought just for her and he remembered that he had placed it in there! Hahaha. He search everywhere for the keychain. And there you go people. A keychain all the way from New York City that is a mini car plate with my name on it. My lil brother is awesome.
Where do broken hearts go, When they find their way home, Back to the open arms of a love that's waiting there. And if somebody loves you, Won't they always love you?
Burned myself during work while taking chicken pie out from the oven
You can't really break what has already been broken can you. And you know for one person to always constantly trying whenever they get rejected takes a whole lot of guts and 'thick skin/face'. It's never easy coming from a history of bad relations not the couple kind. What don't kill you only makes you stronger is pretty true for my case. I learn to accept things as it is when it is not expected. I learn to improvise and be flexible when things don't go as plan or how I wished it would be. I learn to keep things much simpler now compared to the past. How I changed huh. I'm not even sure that the changes in me through out the years since I graduated from high school is good or bad or both. I think about it all the time. I'm slowly changing with the people around me. Or was it better if I never changed but stayed the same.
Can't think straight right now. Having this migraine that is really making me hope wished that it better be a tumor that is causing the pain. What wishful thinking I have sometimes. Gah. So I went and Wiki the word migraine up and this is what I got,
Physiologically, the migraine headache is a neurological condition more common to women than to men.
The typical migraine headache is unilateral, throbbing, and moderate to severe and can be aggravated by physical activity. Not all these features are necessary. The pain may be bilateral at the onset or start on one side and become generalized, and usually it alternates sides from one attack to the next. The onset is usually gradual. The pain peaks and then subsides and usually lasts 4 to 72 hours in adults and 1 to 48 hours in children. The frequency of attacks is extremely variable, from a few in a lifetime to several a week, and the average migraineur experiences one to three headaches a month. The head pain varies greatly in intensity.
The pain of migraine is invariably accompanied by other features. Nausea occurs in almost 90 percent of patients, and vomiting occurs in about one third of patients. Many patients experience sensory hyperexcitability manifested by photophobia, phonophobia, and osmophobia and seek a dark and quiet room. Blurred vision, nasal stuffiness, diarrhea, polyuria, pallor, or sweating may be noted during the headache phase. There may be localized edema of the scalp or face, scalp tenderness, prominence of a vein or artery in the temple, or stiffness and tenderness of the neck. Impairment of concentration and mood are common. Lightheadedness, rather than true vertigo and a feeling of faintness may occur. The extremities tend to be cold and moist.
So that is migraine people. To me in a really short term of how the pain feels. Its like your brain is expanding through your skull trying to burst out. and seriously it hurts shit ass bad. And I thought with a long sleep and panadol would do the trick since I had it all a sudden last night and kept me up till 4am then it happen again this afternoon around 4-5pm. Bugger you! Damn it. I want it to go aways. I usually have it overnight and it will be gone by the time I wake up. Maybe it's the weather. Or maybe its a tumor. Hahaha. Trying to be funny here. Gosh. But it's true. When migraine hits I can't be at bright or noisy places it just makes the pain more unbearable. I can actually feel my brain like expanding or pumping or whatever you wanna call it through my skull. Why can i just have normal headaches pop in 2 panadols and be done with it. Argh.
My finals is in 2 weeks time and I'm not even close to being ready specially for accounts. Which also means that my 1st semester in Uni will be done and over. I'm super lazy this semester or rather not active. I feel less alive most of the time during classes cause I usually try so hard to stay awake during lectures, lab and tutorials.
I need to go hide under my blanket where is dark n quiet now. Migraine kicking in again! BUGGER!! DAMN IT! *&^#&$)(*)(&()*&^)&#^$^&#(*_@Q&#!!