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Come Away With Me, 7:10 PM, Sunday, December 30, 2007
Hey ya... Year 2008 is just around the corner! So fast *snap* a year pass edi. As you grow older time flies like *snap* no? This year 2007 I was with Sis, Ken, Keith and Sabrina welcoming this year with our heads up high and with a broad smile on our faces as we cheer on and on that day is where i got to know Sabrina for like up close and like talk. She was scared of me at camp cause I was scary and serious. Why do people see that! Hehehehe.. I guess that's my face expression my trademark. When I'm not emo people say I am cause the look on my face. Like wth betul...
A lot has happen and changed this year eh? For me is like a lot! And huge changes have happen in my life and here I am again alive not dead or broken. Its a bumpy year as usual. Meet so so many new friends from KYC and from old friends turn to close best friend. Hope I touched someone this year. Did I? Anyone? Anyone?! It cant be that bad right? At least one? Come on... Awww man.. I failed to reach my goal. Have I influenced anyone? In a good way of course. Anyone? Okay.. I need to go for more camps! KYC!!!! xD Really no one ah? Yor.... *merajuks*
Maybe I should be asking another question? Anyone LOVE me? Anyone love me more than the last time we meet? Anyone miss me? Alarh... Takkan no respond. I feel emo now... =P I got to know Sheena, Edwin, Ming Wai and Nicholas more this year! I miss everyone. I mean EVERYONE! I'm so gay. Ever since last year camp ended. I have been more gay and cheesy more than ever! Even more WILD too! Being all wacky, sad, emo and all... Hahaha.. See what you guys have done to me. You guys changed me or maybe brought out a side of me that no friends really did. I'm so thankful and glad, really. =) Thank you! I LOVE YOU GUYS! Brave teddy went to UK to study! Then finally got to see Melody again at camp again. We always meet up at camp since Wai and Mun move to Australia! Which reminds me I MISSS YOU both so so much! Christmas and New Year will not be the same without you guys my cuzzy! Melody is like Wai and Mun. How? Melody is like Wai cause they are kinda motherly. xD Then Melody is also like Mun because when they laugh is damn contagious! When you place Mun and Melody together you will laugh till you drop! Honestly! After camp I only get to hang out with Melody. Cacat betul. Melody laugh more!
I got new goals and aims for coming 2008. Made a wish on christmas. I dont want anything but everyone to be happy and healthy! Dum dum is very caring! I like dum dum! Dum Dum and Ni Ni are BFF no? hahahaha..
Hope things will soon be alright sis.. It will be better you will see. Dont let go of hope. Hang on to it like I am now. Will be here when you are ready.
Will be celebrating new year with Mom and the rest of the sweet sixteens this year! Guess I wont be celebrating with the KYC or school mates this year.
Come Away With Me, 11:52 PM, Monday, December 24, 2007
Its gonna be Christmas in a few minutes time. Here I am blogging. Looks like I'm not gonna be in a merry mood to welcome Christmas this year. I hate myself so much! I'm so hard of myself in everything. I blame myself for almost everything around me. It sucks I know. Everyone says don't take it too hard on yourself. Don't think so much and blablabla. It doesn't help. Honestly. I'm that kind of person who wanna help even if its a little and if I make things worst or I'm not helping. I will shoot myself like a bloody machine gun saying I'm a sucky friend and blablabla. He or she should find a better friend than me. Even my mom says don't take friends problem as your own but looks like I'm not a good girl. Argh. I don't have a problem listening to friends and their issue or etc. This year one my goal was to be an active listener and just don't comment or response. I didn't achieve this goal. Its end of the year edi. Look where I am now and how far I've come.
I was never good in anything. I mean seriously I'm not good in anything. NOTHING! I practically suck in everything. And everything I come across just dies slowly or suffers! I'm a failure. I ain't a good example. What people see in camp of me is nothing I guess. I ache inside out. I ache in everything that turns out wrong. I ache in friendship that I failed so many times. I ache... A bleeding heart never really heals. It bleeds from time to time. Its Christmas already. Here I am listening to emo songs. When some things this year almost seem right just turn out to be a disaster. A life goes by my dreams will stop. So close yet so far. I doubt any of you reading this post have any clue on what I'm tyring to say. I feel like I'm in the middle of everything and anything. For instant, friends. No matter who met who 1st. Then siblings, sports and even friends happiness! Like WTH!
OMG! I'm writing all this during Christmas. Can hear fireworks from my computer room. Parents are back from a wedding. Conclusion, friends really really seriously effects me, influences me and really just brings out the bad and good of me. I'm nothing without friends. I live cause of friends and my family of course. Friends = Natalie Law Wen Ni. What I'm saying in this post has nothing to do with ANYONE! Its just finally I got the guts to write it out and blog bout it! Since I blog about this. Its my last! No more all this drama. I wanna stop all this for myself. My new goal for 2008!
Come Away With Me, 9:20 PM,
Okay... 1st I'm gonna blog bout PD. Went down to PD and its like almost 3 years I never went back cause its was boring. This time is different. Went down with 3 hot sexy sweet sixteens. My mom, Stella then Aunty Yeoh which I always wanna call "Lao Shi" Vina's mom n Aunty Amy! Read Vina's and Ken's blog for more info! xD I lazy to write. I did a lot of things with Vina. Like a lot of 1st things together. hahahaha. Let pictures do the talking. Its really a day to remember even though its just a DAY!
Me & Mom
Mom & Aunty YeohWe can do it just like our moms!
Sis & I *my hairs looks nice in here*
Ken & I
This I did it myself. Was like happy writing it all. Keep thinking of the fun times we had! While Vina & Ken was busy writing "Love notes"... So I did....
I was all alone & I thought of Sexylicious
So I dedicate this whole piece of land to you guys!
I Love you guys! I miss You Guys!
Here is started with 2... Then it ended up with 3...
And it becomes Ken, Natalie and Vina...
This is Ken my brother and this is me, Natalie his sister. DO I look like I madly loving my bro???!!
My Y egg! but Sis says it looks like a ghost with a yolk as it head! like WTFish Me and Lao Shi!
Its christmas eve and I'm here blogging. xD Wanna blog bout 1st day of work but got nothing to say cause no pictures! And here I am thinking do I wanna give Sis her christmas present...
Sis I really wanna read the letter. I honestly don't mind! pls... pls... pls...
Merry Christmas everyone!!!
I'm the only one smilling! I look like a boy!
Come Away With Me, 11:30 PM, Monday, December 17, 2007
This video is done by me like a long time ago. Send it to Vina and I think she was touched. Did you tear? I forgot did she tear though. The reason why I created this video with the photos of our sexylicious outings along with the song Never Alone is to tell you guys that my love for you guys comes in a lot of ways and sizes! I'm really suck at showing how I really feel but that doesn't mean I love you guys less when I don't talk to you guys!
You guys might not know but I became more gay and cheesy after hanging out with you guys. Sexylicious open me up therefore I'm so so grateful to have met you guys! I'm not really the kind of girl who just express how she feels on the spot or anything. I guess I'm still learning to love. To give but not take. To make sacrifices in order to earn and gain. Honestly I'm seriously willing to risk things for you guys I've always been like that even before meeting you guys.
I don't mind getting hurt in order to learn. I don't mind being used cause i might have used someone too. I don't mind being and going all emo cause I'm true to my feelings though its bad cause it will hurt people who cares for me!
This video means a lot to me! And is the way i show you... Yes YOU! That I LOVE you! See how gay and cheesy I've become! I even became girly and all soft for like a minute during this year camp fire night with my famous and hilarious line, "Erm.... Do you have a girlfriend?" which you guys laugh your socks out till I can hear you guys going OMG! hahaha... I do stupid things for you guys. Be proud! I don't need respect if you guys think I don't earn it.
Time will heal and mend wounds that I cause...
I will do another new video soon! There is new sexylicious in the house! Miss Abby, Nisha and Sher Wen! *hugs*
Come Away With Me, 2:09 PM, Sunday, December 16, 2007
Its Sunday and I woke up like 5.50 to get ready to follow mum to park. My mum is Sweet 16! She is my sister not my mom. hahaha... Meet up with Vina. Walked. Chat. Listened. After mom and the gang of leng lui's finish dancing went to Aunty Iris house. Her house was really nice. Sis couldnt stop taking photos. xP Sis just dream of that kind of house and one day sure will come true! Going down to PD this coming Thursday. Going down with mum, Aunty Yeoh, Ken and hopefully sis can go if she doesnt have classes. Pray hard! Really looking forward to it. Spending time with mum and Ken. Maybe can even undone the things I done and try to mend it.
Outing photos. Read Sabrina blog bout our outing. xD Miss Melody a lot. Every year only get to see her once during camp then outing after camp! Melody we have to keep in touch more often!
Taking my best friend for granted is always like last mintue only I realize. I'm so slow and just complicated till I'm emo. I'm really complicated even though I wanna be simple like Happy-Go-Lucky like my mom and Ken. Then maybe the people who I care and love so much wouldnt be hurt or affected by complicated Natalie. So here I am... Thinking of how to mend things that I've done. Dont want any distance or gap or wall. One more try is all I asked.
Come Away With Me, 5:12 PM, Friday, December 14, 2007
I guess is my turn to blog now. Sheena, Sabrina and Vina already blog. I went and curi some photos from each blog. xP hope you guys don't mind. 6th of December i was free from SPM. Went down to Mid Valley with my class then meet up with Vina, Deven and G. Watched Enchanted which was really fun because very its been a long time since i catch a movie with Vina. Me and her would just talk bout what gonna be said next and etc. Miss spending time with you la sis... *hugs*
Vina posing with Santa Michael
Vina slept over for the night and we watch Freedom Writers and we both sort of shed tears. Then we watched Victoria's Secret Fashion Show 2006 then tidur... Vina didn't sleep talk but she snatch most the blanket! I left with a small part then both of us like cuddle up to the side. 7th, Morning meet up at LRT everybody was so happy and shouting out names. When up on bus only the back of the bus was so so noisy. Playing and singing was our game then half way we got the whole bus to sort of come back alive by a lil ice breaking and clapping. Our dorms and toilets were all upgraded and IMPROVE!!
We got our buddies then later got into our team. My team was with Edwin S.O.S (Survivor Of Survivor). My team cheer goes like this, "Say What?! S.O.S! Say Who?! Survior of survivor! Do What?! Outwith! And? Outplay! Then? Outlast!" Vina was in the same room with me. Slept next to me where we connect our beds together. Sabrina different room... Sheena felt at home! xD
When back take shower then this are the pics.. Sabrina capture the hilarious side of me.. like really funny faces! Hardly took any pic with Aileen, Sabrina, Sheena and etc..
Later at night pretty much the same. Was in mail room writing mail.. xD then indoor session with HOT, Heidi. Did a game to reach your target.And some of them really were amazing! Salute them!
Couldnt sleep the 1st night at ALL! Toss and turn. So got up at 6am to walk around sat down at a table and reading Vina letter to me. Then when back to dorm brush teeth ran out to see the early view before the sun come out took a few pictures and I left Vina all alone which was an ASSof me through out the camp.
Then afternoon we went rafting! White water rafting was so good! Bamboo rafting was so tiring! Tug of war on water! Overweight won... Later everyone was tired on the bus and most fall fast asleep then me and Vina sang till we got back...
Night walk was scary. I was the 1st to walk in the line so I fell twice but it was nothing big. 1st on my butt then 2nd I forgot. Then went up to the top was feeling damn sick wanted to puke. Got the person behind me worried sick bout me and I was an ASS again cause I didnt replied or talk. Wanna apologize to that person seriously from the bottom of my heart. Sorry. Still I enjoy night walk cause I get to make sure others do not slip and fall like me...
Next morning Obstacle Course! Was fun and very challenging! Had period some more and was my 1st day. I look like a dead fish but manage to finish the whole thing with my team can't let them down! Last night so means camp fire night. Did a skit which made Vina and Sabrina laugh non stop and can't stop talking bout it till now. Glad I put a smile on your faces before the last night! It was public humiliation! Then the team leaders did CATWALK as an end to the night before circle of appreciation!
So that's basically it for camp. Too much to say but so lil to show! Anyways camp was very good. Thanks to you guys! *hugs*
After camp we had an outing cause we miss each other too much. Will blog bout that later and soon...