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Come Away With Me, 10:10 PM, Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Turn It Up by Pixie Lott
I know you can't stay So I wont be waiting, anticipating for the fall We had our time baby So I wont be waiting, anticipating for the call So lets be grown ups for a minute and just admit that were just not in it.
Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say Were moving on and we'll be okay Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say We're moving on and we'll be OK...
No Surprise by Chris Daughtry
It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow I can't believe that I stayed till today There's nothing here in this heart left to borrow There's nothing here in this soul left to say
Don't be surprised when we hate this tomorrow God knows we tried to find an easier way Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise
Our favorite place we used to go The warm embrace that no one knows The loving look that's left your eyes That's why this comes as no, As no surprise
If I could see the future and how this plays out I bet it's better than where we are now But after going through this It's easier to see the reason why.
Mona Lisa by The All-American Rejects
You can sit beside me when the world comes down If it doesn't matter than just turn around We don't need our bags And we can just leave town You can sit beside me when the world comes down
What can we do better? When will we know how? A man says from the sidewalk to the crowd
If you can change the weather If you wanted to yourself Well if you can't I guess we all need help Cause i need help.
Its been a pretty alright week so far since MTV World Stage. Still waiting for photos that I can grab from Dila. She's busy. Anyways, I've been sleeping a lot since Monday. I'm addicted to the songs above and when ever No Surprise is played on air I will turn up the volume. Haha. I'm that kind of person. I like to crank up the volume when I drive till the point I can't really hear if other cars is honing me. :)
Anyways. It's been a while since I self reflected. You know how far have I come since the last time I self reflected with the whole being a good daughter, sister and friend thing that I always do. I haven't been thinking much of anything lately. I have been just going with the flow ever since Uni started. Met a few new friends no more then 10 I think. Kept in touch with the old ones that I first met back in foundation. Things are different now. All of us are in different paths and if luck is on your side some stayed together. Its been one year and 3 months since I've been in HELP. And without a doubt I've met amazing crazy nutcase wild loud funny nice caring friends that one wished they can keep for many years to come.
And here I am saying I'm finally the lucky one who has such amazing friends. I guess you have to meet a few or maybe a lot of bad friends till you met the good worth keeping ones. Funny thing is, doesn't mean you think they are worth keeping that they would think the same way too. Then there is where expectations comes in. You put a certain amount of pressure on yourself to try to keep the ship sailing. Then blablabla. Well, I'm not sure if I'm a good sister, daughter nor a friend to who ever is reading this. But I try to be. So does that count? Does my effort counts for something? I hope it does cause I'm kinda wanna prove something here naively with a hidden agenda. You might think of it as to prove that Superman is true in a different way.
People come and go. Same goes with friends as you finish each semester and enrolling yourself to a different subjects. It isn't easy to find friends worth keeping these days and you know dance with you. It takes 2 hands to clap right so it takes 2 to dance, tango, waltz, chacha, fox trot or whatever it is. Try sailing a ship alone without help. Try flying a plane alone without your co-pilot. Its so easy to make friends but to keep them is a whole new set of story. Picking friends too is easy just make sure you don't end up being not pick.
I'm biting my own tail here go round and round not sure even where I'm going with this. Lol. Don't mind me people. I'm confused with my own words. I guess I'm just glad with how things turn out to be after high school and that people actually think I'm happier. I guess when I stop tyring to watch over my back constantly and gotten over most my insecurities and huge ass ego and just be me and smile more, I became less serious and scary. :D
I miss working just to be super random. I really do. I miss serving the picky Arabs who pay good tips and gives us sales that makes our district manager happy and be the top store still. II don't really miss the way Arabs eat cause they eat like dogs not all Arabs but some and they really know how to make a mess or rather they know how to create World War III! I don't miss they accent calling for Cheese Croissant and I want MORE Caramel, MORE CARAMEL. or went they go EXCUSE ME EXCUSE ME like they own the place without lining up. I miss working at the POS being all police on customer interrogating them with question upon their ordering of drinks and food items. I miss making drinks and draw smiley faces on blended beverages with caramel drizzle or chocolate drizzle just to make a kid smile or an adult smile for my day to be more meaningful and pushes me to work more. And working gives me a satisfaction like I'm working for a purpose not just to get my monthly salary. I like working cause I get satisfaction knowing such a simple cup of coffee can make ones day. Its good being that kind of person. Even though that kind of person tends to be invisible. :) Weekends here I come. Starbucks just you wait for me! I can't wait for Merdeka and Hari Raya cause they are all triple pay day! whooo hooo!