Come Away With me

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Natalie Law

Come Away With Me, 11:38 AM, Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Broken

Ken got me the keychain from NYC. He thought he lost it and he was pretty bumped out about it cause he says its perfect and he really loved it. So mom found it in her Couch pouch that Ken bought just for her and he remembered that he had placed it in there! Hahaha. He search everywhere for the keychain. And there you go people. A keychain all the way from New York City that is a mini car plate with my name on it. My lil brother is awesome.

Where do broken hearts go,
When they find their way home,
Back to the open arms of a love that's waiting there.
And if somebody loves you,
Won't they always love you?

Burned myself during work while taking chicken pie out from the oven

You can't really break what has already been broken can you. And you know for one person to always constantly trying whenever they get rejected takes a whole lot of guts and 'thick skin/face'. It's never easy coming from a history of bad relations not the couple kind. What don't kill you only makes you stronger is pretty true for my case. I learn to accept things as it is when it is not expected. I learn to improvise and be flexible when things don't go as plan or how I wished it would be. I learn to keep things much simpler now compared to the past. How I changed huh. I'm not even sure that the changes in me through out the years since I graduated from high school is good or bad or both. I think about it all the time. I'm slowly changing with the people around me. Or was it better if I never changed but stayed the same.

Can't think straight right now. Having this migraine that is really making me hope wished that it better be a tumor that is causing the pain. What wishful thinking I have sometimes. Gah. So I went and Wiki the word migraine up and this is what I got,

Physiologically, the migraine headache is a neurological condition more common to women than to men.

The typical migraine headache is unilateral, throbbing, and moderate to severe and can be aggravated by physical activity. Not all these features are necessary. The pain may be bilateral at the onset or start on one side and become generalized, and usually it alternates sides from one attack to the next. The onset is usually gradual. The pain peaks and then subsides and usually lasts 4 to 72 hours in adults and 1 to 48 hours in children. The frequency of attacks is extremely variable, from a few in a lifetime to several a week, and the average migraineur experiences one to three headaches a month. The head pain varies greatly in intensity.

The pain of migraine is invariably accompanied by other features. Nausea occurs in almost 90 percent of patients, and vomiting occurs in about one third of patients. Many patients experience sensory hyperexcitability manifested by photophobia, phonophobia, and osmophobia and seek a dark and quiet room. Blurred vision, nasal stuffiness, diarrhea, polyuria, pallor, or sweating may be noted during the headache phase. There may be localized edema of the scalp or face, scalp tenderness, prominence of a vein or artery in the temple, or stiffness and tenderness of the neck. Impairment of concentration and mood are common. Lightheadedness, rather than true vertigo and a feeling of faintness may occur. The extremities tend to be cold and moist.

So that is migraine people. To me in a really short term of how the pain feels. Its like your brain is expanding through your skull trying to burst out. and seriously it hurts shit ass bad. And I thought with a long sleep and panadol would do the trick since I had it all a sudden last night and kept me up till 4am then it happen again this afternoon around 4-5pm. Bugger you! Damn it. I want it to go aways. I usually have it overnight and it will be gone by the time I wake up. Maybe it's the weather. Or maybe its a tumor. Hahaha. Trying to be funny here. Gosh. But it's true. When migraine hits I can't be at bright or noisy places it just makes the pain more unbearable. I can actually feel my brain like expanding or pumping or whatever you wanna call it through my skull. Why can i just have normal headaches pop in 2 panadols and be done with it. Argh.

My finals is in 2 weeks time and I'm not even close to being ready specially for accounts. Which also means that my 1st semester in Uni will be done and over. I'm super lazy this semester or rather not active. I feel less alive most of the time during classes cause I usually try so hard to stay awake during lectures, lab and tutorials.

I need to go hide under my blanket where is dark n quiet now. Migraine kicking in again! BUGGER!! DAMN IT! *&^#&$)(*)(&()*&^)&#^$^&#(*_@Q&#!!