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Come Away With Me, 10:24 PM, Thursday, June 25, 2009
All day staring at the ceiling Making friends with shadows on my wall. All night hearing voices telling me That I should get some sleep Because tomorrow might be good for something.
Hold on Feeling like I'm headed for a breakdown And I don't know why.
But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell I know right now you can't tell. But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see A different side of me.
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired I know right now you don't care. But soon enough you're gonna think of me And how I used to be... Me.
I'm talking to myself in public Dodging glances on the train. And I know, I know they've all been talking about me I can hear them whisper And it makes me think there must be something wrong with me. Out of all the hours thinking Somehow I've lost my mind.
But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell I know right now you cant tell. But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see A different side of me.
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired I know right now you don't care. But soon enough you're gonna think of me And how I used to be.
I've been talking in my sleep Pretty soon they'll come to get me Yeah, they're taking me away.
If I were to have a song that would be this one right here. I've been eating a lot. Worst thing is when I sleep I'll just sleep till the next day when the sun is gonna go down. Even though I don't need the extra sleep nor I'm tired. I just wanna sleep and sleep till I feel that it alright for me to wake up and face the day and people around me.
I care about what people think and how they talk. I care about their opinions. As much as I wanna care it is not a good habit cause that's where I start to please people by following their decision. I may get hurt well I'm already. So no big deal. And people, you guys have to stop asking me to relax or chill or loosen up or don't be serious and all when I'm not even that way. You guys assume I am.
Anyways, I'm not getting anywhere with any of them. Just random thoughts that's all. My phone is as good as dead. I only text a few people these days. I don't text often any more. Unless people text me then I text them back. Or when I'm bored in class I will text poke Jia and that's pretty much about it. Wait, I text about Tuesday lunch with Rachel and the rest.
I guess at the end of the day all each and every one of us wants to know that we belong to a certain group of friends. And we wanna know that at the end of the day we have friends who cared. I'm just gonna go with the same quote I used in my past post, is still in the top of my quote list. Gonna be sticking to this quote for quite some time.
"At the end of the day, when it comes down to it, all we really want is to be close to somebody. So this thing, where we all keep our distance and pretend not to care about each other, is usually a load of bull. So we pick and choose who we want to remain close to, and once we’ve chosen those people, we tend to stick close by. No matter how much we hurt them, the people that are still with you at the end of the day – those are the ones worth keeping. And sure, sometimes close can be too close. But sometimes, that invasion of personal space, it can be exactly what you need."