www.blur-natalicious.blogspot.com welcome to my blog
Shhhh.. Don't speak till you read. Don't judge till you judge yourself.
Just a place for me to speak freely without anyone breathing down my neck
and just judging who I am and what I write about.
If you do have something to say nonetheless then I shall listen. :]
For a more photographic blog do hop over the links and click on 'My Tumblr Blog'.
So Come Away With Me to my side of the story and hear me out.
Come Away With Me, 8:41 PM, Friday, June 5, 2009
All In My Head but is it Forever & Almost Always?
Do any of you know that I love the sky, clouds, sun and almost everything that mother nature have to offer weather if it rains of shine? I love the clouds, specially when it is bright sky blue and I can see so many shapes of it specially when it collides with one and other. I guess that's why I enjoy my flight to anywhere cause of clouds. I have this big huge crush for bright skies too specially when its sunrise or sunset! Night views just takes my breath away.
I love that Cammy can just be on a tripod and snap the moment of it which I wanna capture no matter what it is. It's almost like she's my best partner ever! There's so many things in life I wanna capture through my view. I know I can't see what people see but I want people to see what I see at least. I know my skills in photography is like bad or really amateurish. But I don't know.. I just feel in control when I hold a camera in my palm and press the shutter button. Some may not like my work and think that I still treat my DSLR like a normal digital camera but I will beg to differ.
I want so badly to drop all the things I'm studying now and just travel the world with Cammy in hand and a bag pack behind my bag with or without a few close friends with me. I can't, it's just all in my head. Its reality that I have to be stuck at the present trying to find meaning to pass each day. Trying to find something to look forward is more like it. I'm in a degree which I didn't choose as my first pick. Life doesn't go the way I want it to be. Life doesn't go the way most people want it to. That's life. Sucks right. I know. pifft.
So yeah, my first week in uni isn't what I expect it to be. I wish I have made like new friends but I haven't. Sad case. I wish the lecturers aren't that boring and just be more alive? As if the subject isn't boring enough to make me fall asleep. I'm gonna have subjects from every aspect in business including LAW, ITC, Management and the 4 famous majors. I thought of a seriously lame joke, "Law Wen Ni! you just failed LAW!".
I miss Cammy. I have so much to learn, specially through my mistakes. I guess I can't take the less traveled road. Although it is not the same but its awful close. And that's fine by me. With my latest motto I shall strive to get out of Malaysia and break free from all restrictions and wait patiently for my time to soar. It's all in my head really. I have to make do with whatever that is being given to me or even thrown at me. I might suck at dealing with it the right way but at least I'm dealing with it none the less. :) It won't be forever and almost always like this. It's not gonna happen.
I just have to want it bad enough to make it happen and have it.