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Come Away With Me, 3:41 PM, Wednesday, May 27, 2009
It's Only Life
I can't help stop thinking about my future now. I've always have a plan but I don't think it is gonna be working out for me. It has finally dawn to me that tomorrow is my Uni orientation and that I finally have to damn put some back and work into the years to come if I were to make it to where I wanna go and do what I wanna do.
I've a whole long list of things I wanna do when I leave Malaysia and go to my whole new life over the other side. I never really worked hard for anything in my life which is a screw up for me. I've always been the average kinda of girl in almost everything in my life. I'm fine with that but that's no good and it ain't gonna work for me if I wanna go to Australia to further my studies. I know I can do it if I just can stay focus and put my back in it like how I used to plan my events and pour all my heart at it. I need that drive. I need that motivation. I need that courage. I need that determination and persistent!
I've got to make something out of myself. I don't wanna always be the person I am today who is just average and mean nothing to the world you know. I know I can be more than who I am today. I can do better. So why am I hesitating with my actions and decisions? God damn it. *sorry for using God name in vain here*Not like I'm a bodoh right. Sigh. Seeing Ash beating herself up and no one willing to give her the chance she needs to do her double degree she wants so badly just sucks.
Its only life, but we all are trying to make the best of it as we go along. Life is just unpredictable and well fact is we have to sometimes adjust and be flexible with it. If you want something, you just have to want it bad enough that's all. And I just have to want it bad enough to make it work. And Ash I've said all that I can say its up to you now. For you Ash if your reading this,
"Take your hesitance And your self-defense Leave them behind, it's only life Don't be so afraid Of facing everyday Just take your time, it's only life I'll be your stepping-stone No, don't be so alone Just hold on tight, it's only life
Don't look away Don't run away It's only life Don't lose your faith Don't run away Its only life Yea, it's only life." by Kate Voegle