I've been stressed out lately, who isn't? I know all me friends in HELP Foundation is stressed out. For most of us, it’s the toughest semester ever. :) So you know, when I face a problem that I can't a solution for at the moment or when I'm sooper stressed out with everything even quiz and exams or when I'm just so frustrated with group assignments. What do I do? I go to my BED!
No, seriously. I go to my bed! The scent of my blanket when I curled up in it. The scent of my pillow when I hugged it like there's no tomorrow. It never fails to calm me down and to hear my own heartbeat and my breathing. Being in my bed, hugging my pillow tightly and curling up in my blanket is the best thing ever. It makes my problems go away for just that very few hours which I needed to get me back together and face the world the next day.
It makes me feel like everything will be alright. It gives me; myself and I, an alone time to think back and try to solve things with a calm mind without distractions. I love my bed. I love my pillow. I love my blanket. I love everything of how it makes me feel, when I feel like I got no one no friend to run to with my thoughts and messed up me.
Being with friends who can make you laugh and smile are hard to come by. I have them all around me at college. Which is why I will go all out for them and having their backs. Anyways, I’m off topic here. Never mind, let me go off topic one more time, k? Bare with me, I just found out that my Activ10 is not my active 10 at all. I don’t text them as much as I thought I would yet they are in my Activ10, which means nothing. All my Activ10 friends have all drifted apart. So I don’t think a new Activ10 will be necessary for me. So I deleted all my Activ10 and decided to leave it empty and blank as how my phone is. My phone hardly beeps nor rings. :) So when ever it rings or beep, I will like get a shock or jerk. Hahaha. And it never fails to surprise me that I do have friends who care about me. That is why I say a simple message means like the whole world to me.
Alright, back to the main topic. I know I have friends I can run to but I do not want to ruin their day nor rain on their parade. And maybe I’m just afraid of running to them, letting them know I am not alright and I need them to be here with me. It’s hard to show how I feel on my face at college. But I when I don’t feel alright, being next to my friends is all I really need. They don’t have to know nor do I have to tell. Cause their laughter and smiles are the cure really.
My alone time