How does it feel like to have a friend that you know have you back?
Does it feel like you are in cloud nine? Does it feel secured?
How should I know? I never experienced it before.
Why don't you tell me? Share with me then?Do you see what I see? Please tell me you do,
cause if not. This is nothing but just a picture.
All we want is to know that there is at least some one there that we can call a true friend.
I don't know how it feels like. And I stop trying to find out how it feels like. I take anything that comes my way these days, bad or good it doesn't matter that much to me anymore. I've said this before long time ago, where that one can feel alone and lonely while knowing so many friends.
Is it bad of me to say that I don't think I have a friend like that? Maybe I do, then it can only explain how blind I am for not seeing them then. But could I be the one to blame? How can a person like be even think of such questions when I have so many friends. Friends who makes me laugh and smile. Sigh. You guys must be thinking, Nat's EMO
I wish I was emo
then I could just crank up Mika's
, Avril's, Simple Plan, Faber Drive, Leona Lewis, Amy Pearson, Kelly Clarkson
, Frank Sinatra, Pink, Paramore
and so much more artist and their songs and get it over and done with but it isn't that simple. How I wish it is really that simple then I wouldn't be here writing this post. It's me reflecting back on my life and how I feel.
But why am I finding so hard to know that all this is normal and that I'm not the only one who goes through life like this and think of things like this from time to time?
. I get mad at myself whenever I think about all this. Thinking how can I be so weak. Thinking how can I allow myself to be eaten up by all this crap. I get frustrated with myself.
I guess part of why I am going through all this is stress. T_T I got few more assignments to go along with presentations. But I doubt it is all about stress. I think its what every of us wants which is for people to care and take note of what you have done, be
and not being taken for granted and just give a pat of the back once a while. I guess its positive stroking that everyone of us needs. :)