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Come Away With Me, 7:00 PM, Saturday, February 28, 2009
Five (5) lessons to make you think about the way we treat people.
1 - First Important Lesson -
Cleaning Lady.
During my second month of college,
our professor
gave us a pop quiz. I was a
conscientious student
and had breezed through the questions
until I read
the last one:
'What is the first name of the woman who
cleans the school?'
Surely this was some kind of joke. I
had seen the
cleaning woman several times. She
was tall,
dark-haired and in her 50s, but how would
I know her name?
I handed in my paper, leaving the
last question
blank. Just before class ended, one
student asked if
the last question would count toward o
ur quiz grade.
'Absolutely,' said the professor. 'In
your careers,
you will meet many people. All are
significant. They
deserve your attention and care, even
if all you do
is smile and say
'hello.'
I've never forgotten that lesson. I
also learned her
name was Dorothy.
2. - Second Important Lesson -
Pickup in the Rain
One night, at 11:3 0 p.m., an older
African-American
woman was standing on the side of an
Alabama highway
trying to endure a lashing
rainstorm. Her car had
broken down and she desperately
needed a ride.
Soaking wet, she decided to flag down
the next car.
A young white man stopped to help
her, generally
unheard of in those conflict-filled
60s. The man
took her to safety, helped her get
assistance and
put her into a taxicab.
She seemed to be in a big hurry, but
wrote down his
address and thanked him. Seven days
went by and a
knock came on the man's door. To his
surprise, a
giant console color TV was delivered
to his home. A
special note was
attached..
It read:
'Thank you so much for assisting me
on the highway
the other night. The rain drenched
not only my
clothes, but also my spirits. Then
you came along.
Because of you, I was able to make
it to my dying
husband's bedside just before he
passed away... God
bless you for helping me and
unselfishly serving
others.'
Sincerely, Mrs. Nat King
Cole.
3 - Third Important Lesson - Always
remember those who serve.
In the days when an ice cream sundae
cost much less,
a 10-year-old boy entered a hotel
coffee shop and
sat at a table. A waitress put a glass of
water in front of him.
'How much is an ice cream sundae?'
he asked.
'Fifty cents,' replied the
waitress.
The little boy pulled is hand out of
his pocket and
studied the coins in it.
'Well, how much is a plain dish of ice
cream?' he inquired.
By now more people were waiting for a
table and the
waitress was growing
impatient.
'Thirty-five cents,' she
brusquely replied.
The little boy again counted
his coins.
'I'll have the plain ice cream,'
he said.
The waitress brought the ice cream,
put the bill on
the table and walked away. The boy
finished the ice
cream, paid the cashier and left.
When the waitress
came back, she began to cry as she
wiped down the
table. There, placed neatly beside
the empty dish,
were two nickels and five
pennies
You see, he couldn't have the sundae,
because he had
to have enough left to leave
her a tip.
4 - Fourth Important Lesson. - The
obstacle in Our Path.
In ancient times, a King had a
boulder placed on a
roadway. Then he hid himself and
watched to see if
anyone would remove the huge rock.
Some of the
king's wealthiest merchants and
courtiers came by
and simply walked around it. Many
loudly blamed the
King for not keeping the roads clear,
but none did
anything about getting the stone out
of the way.
Then a peasant came along carrying
a load of
vegetables. Upon approaching the
boulder, the
peasant laid down his burden and
tried to move the
stone to the side of the road. After
much pu shing
and straining, he finally
succeeded. After the
peasant picked up his load of
vegetables, he noticed
a purse lying in the road where the
boulder had
been. The purse contained many gold
coins and a note
from the King indicating that the
gold was for the
person who removed the boulder from
the roadway. The
peasant learned what many of us
never understand!
Every obstacle presents an opportunity to
improve our condition.
5 - Fifth Important Lesson - Giving
When it Counts...
Many years ago, when I worked as a
volunteer at a
hospital, I got to know a little girl
named Liz who
was suffering from a rare & serious
disease. Her only
chance of recovery appeared to
be a blood
transfusion from her 5-year old
brother, who had
miraculously survived the same
disease and had
developed the antibodies needed to
combat the
illness. The doctor explained the
situation to her
little brother, and asked the little
boy if he would
be willing to give his blood to
his sister.
I saw him hesitate for only a moment
before taking a
deep breath and saying, 'Yes, I'll do
it if it will
save her.' As the transfusion
progressed, he lay in
bed next to his sister and smiled,
as we all did,
seeing the color returning to her
cheek. Then his
face grew pale and his smile
faded.
He looked up at the doctor and
asked with a
trembling voice, 'Will I start to die
right away?'
Being young, the little boy had
misunderstood the
doctor; he thought he was going to
have to give his
sister all of his blood in order
to save her.
1 - First Important Lesson -
Cleaning Lady.
During my second month of college,
our professor
gave us a pop quiz. I was a
conscientious student
and had breezed through the questions
until I read
the last one:
'What is the first name of the woman who
cleans the school?'
Surely this was some kind of joke. I
had seen the
cleaning woman several times. She
was tall,
dark-haired and in her 50s, but how would
I know her name?
I handed in my paper, leaving the
last question
blank. Just before class ended, one
student asked if
the last question would count toward o
ur quiz grade.
'Absolutely,' said the professor. 'In
your careers,
you will meet many people. All are
significant. They
deserve your attention and care, even
if all you do
is smile and say
'hello.'
I've never forgotten that lesson. I
also learned her
name was Dorothy.
2. - Second Important Lesson -
Pickup in the Rain
One night, at 11:3 0 p.m., an older
African-American
woman was standing on the side of an
Alabama highway
trying to endure a lashing
rainstorm. Her car had
broken down and she desperately
needed a ride.
Soaking wet, she decided to flag down
the next car.
A young white man stopped to help
her, generally
unheard of in those conflict-filled
60s. The man
took her to safety, helped her get
assistance and
put her into a taxicab.
She seemed to be in a big hurry, but
wrote down his
address and thanked him. Seven days
went by and a
knock came on the man's door. To his
surprise, a
giant console color TV was delivered
to his home. A
special note was
attached..
It read:
'Thank you so much for assisting me
on the highway
the other night. The rain drenched
not only my
clothes, but also my spirits. Then
you came along.
Because of you, I was able to make
it to my dying
husband's bedside just before he
passed away... God
bless you for helping me and
unselfishly serving
others.'
Sincerely, Mrs. Nat King
Cole.
3 - Third Important Lesson - Always
remember those who serve.
In the days when an ice cream sundae
cost much less,
a 10-year-old boy entered a hotel
coffee shop and
sat at a table. A waitress put a glass of
water in front of him.
'How much is an ice cream sundae?'
he asked.
'Fifty cents,' replied the
waitress.
The little boy pulled is hand out of
his pocket and
studied the coins in it.
'Well, how much is a plain dish of ice
cream?' he inquired.
By now more people were waiting for a
table and the
waitress was growing
impatient.
'Thirty-five cents,' she
brusquely replied.
The little boy again counted
his coins.
'I'll have the plain ice cream,'
he said.
The waitress brought the ice cream,
put the bill on
the table and walked away. The boy
finished the ice
cream, paid the cashier and left.
When the waitress
came back, she began to cry as she
wiped down the
table. There, placed neatly beside
the empty dish,
were two nickels and five
pennies
You see, he couldn't have the sundae,
because he had
to have enough left to leave
her a tip.
4 - Fourth Important Lesson. - The
obstacle in Our Path.
In ancient times, a King had a
boulder placed on a
roadway. Then he hid himself and
watched to see if
anyone would remove the huge rock.
Some of the
king's wealthiest merchants and
courtiers came by
and simply walked around it. Many
loudly blamed the
King for not keeping the roads clear,
but none did
anything about getting the stone out
of the way.
Then a peasant came along carrying
a load of
vegetables. Upon approaching the
boulder, the
peasant laid down his burden and
tried to move the
stone to the side of the road. After
much pu shing
and straining, he finally
succeeded. After the
peasant picked up his load of
vegetables, he noticed
a purse lying in the road where the
boulder had
been. The purse contained many gold
coins and a note
from the King indicating that the
gold was for the
person who removed the boulder from
the roadway. The
peasant learned what many of us
never understand!
Every obstacle presents an opportunity to
improve our condition.
5 - Fifth Important Lesson - Giving
When it Counts...
Many years ago, when I worked as a
volunteer at a
hospital, I got to know a little girl
named Liz who
was suffering from a rare & serious
disease. Her only
chance of recovery appeared to
be a blood
transfusion from her 5-year old
brother, who had
miraculously survived the same
disease and had
developed the antibodies needed to
combat the
illness. The doctor explained the
situation to her
little brother, and asked the little
boy if he would
be willing to give his blood to
his sister.
I saw him hesitate for only a moment
before taking a
deep breath and saying, 'Yes, I'll do
it if it will
save her.' As the transfusion
progressed, he lay in
bed next to his sister and smiled,
as we all did,
seeing the color returning to her
cheek. Then his
face grew pale and his smile
faded.
He looked up at the doctor and
asked with a
trembling voice, 'Will I start to die
right away?'
Being young, the little boy had
misunderstood the
doctor; he thought he was going to
have to give his
sister all of his blood in order
to save her.
'Work like you don't need the money, love like you've never been hurt,and dance like you do when nobody's watching.'
Come Away With Me, 9:23 PM, Thursday, February 26, 2009
I'm currently into 90210! wheeeee...
Come Away With Me, 8:00 PM,
A Unplanned Weekend
Watched this on Saturday with KM.The Movie was awesome-ly cool! His guns were so so cool. And did I ever mention I love the firing of gun sounds. And KM likes to talk during the movie like me. xD I wanna have the Punisher punya tee. Black or red would be nice. Transformer too wei.. :D
Then on Sunday when and get this woman to come over to stay since her roomie went back Johor till Tuesday. So we studied. Konon la right? But we did study for the 1st night then the 2nd night we sort of slack. But we did study in during the day at Starbucks above our college. xD Anyways, lets just let the photos to do the story telling alright?
Then on Sunday when and get this woman to come over to stay since her roomie went back Johor till Tuesday. So we studied. Konon la right? But we did study for the 1st night then the 2nd night we sort of slack. But we did study in during the day at Starbucks above our college. xD Anyways, lets just let the photos to do the story telling alright?
It all started from here...
She loves Slam Dunk
She ate my Baby Patchi(Chocolate) T.T
I couldn't concentrate on Econs so I played with me Cammy
And she was my model xD
Stamps made her happy
Starbucks stamps to be exact
See her see her
Her very new collection
Italian Roast
Looks like a messy artist room no? Maybe a struggling musician?
Hugo the big dog next door
We got this pair of new shoes too by the way
Red. Banana Moon
Spot the difference?
That was how my weekend and the following Monday till Tuesday was like. We studied in Starbucks till Wednesday though. :) It was great having someone in the house rather than plain old me, dad & mom. I think my parents thinks its good also. Its much fun and lively with more people.
Miss this kind of days where things just go with the flow kinda thing. Where no one plan but just go with what comes our way. And at the end of it all, you just appreciate the beauty of it and just have fun with your peeps.
Miss this kind of days where things just go with the flow kinda thing. Where no one plan but just go with what comes our way. And at the end of it all, you just appreciate the beauty of it and just have fun with your peeps.
The unknown unnamed
Amateur Photographer
Amateur Photographer
Come Away With Me, 8:16 PM, Wednesday, February 25, 2009
I need a hand. To hold tight and remind me that I have someone.
I need a hug. To remind me that everything is gonna be alright.
I need a friend. To be by my side through tough and rough times.
I need a back. To lay my back against your back when I'm beat up.
I need a hug. To remind me that everything is gonna be alright.
I need a friend. To be by my side through tough and rough times.
I need a back. To lay my back against your back when I'm beat up.
Lately, I found a few friends that I could count on and I never thought I could. Maybe real soon I will be able to finally find the answers for the questions I've been longing for. Rachel on Monday asked me and KM a farny question. A question that was so familiar that it reminded myself that I once ask myself that very question over and over again a few years back.
I told Rachel that there is no exact answer to that very question but I answered still with the best I had. *smiles* Then I too was given a answer to that old long forgotten question I left behind. Thanks for your opinion but I don't think I deserve it. I'm not as good as you said I am. But I'm glad that I'm able to make people around me comfortable. I know I know, I need to have for confidence! Nah nah nah, don't say I weird or dumb or bodoh k? Yes, you la who else right will call me those farny names. Hahaha. Thanks wei.
I told Rachel that there is no exact answer to that very question but I answered still with the best I had. *smiles* Then I too was given a answer to that old long forgotten question I left behind. Thanks for your opinion but I don't think I deserve it. I'm not as good as you said I am. But I'm glad that I'm able to make people around me comfortable. I know I know, I need to have for confidence! Nah nah nah, don't say I weird or dumb or bodoh k? Yes, you la who else right will call me those farny names. Hahaha. Thanks wei.
You know how is it when you expect some friends to care but instead some other friends comes along and surprises you with their care? It felt nice. It felt warm. I wanna just be cheesy here and say a big big thank you. Thanks for reminding me to have a lil faith and believe in myself. You guys know who you are, right? You better! :)
Come Away With Me, 9:33 PM, Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Knowing how I had a really rough start on my mid-terms. I screwed Stats last Saturday and today I screwed Econs. Dad's in bad shape it seems. Don't see just how can mom and him joke about it at the dinner table. Dinner table is where adult talk. And I for once just keep really quiet through out tonight dinner as they talk about the test my dad is gonna go through and surgery. He couldn't even pass Level 2 and my uncle was at Level 4.
I don't see the humor where I knowing my dad might have a bad heart due to block arteries! When mom told me in the car on our back home just now. It hit me hard and yet I held the tears back and just said an "Ouh.." in a cool tone. My eyes were wet and I could hear myself breathing heavily and in my mind was, "Fcuk. again?".
Thinking it would be easier as I been through these situations so many times, it is not. I'm easily bruise, what more bad news about family? Uncle said we've bad genes and that I should start getting back into shape. My mom as usual cool as an ice queen. I know she cares but is just so her to be cold.
I'm the most emotional child in my family. So is like where is Ken? Where is Marcus? All a sudden I have the urge to ask them to come back home. But mom said, no. What can they do. Let them know after dad goes through with surgery. Which hopefully, he doesn't have to. I hate the hospital. I hate the smells. I hate the room. I hate the white dull walls. I guess I just hate seeing the unknown. I hate being not able to do anything when all these years, I've been trying to do everything.
Dad will be doing exercise soon which is really what he needs. And me, I've to get back my stamina that I missed so much but yet couldn't find the determination to see it through. I miss shooting hoops. I miss sparring with opponents. I miss all the training I used to have.
I'm just really messed up now. Can't really think straight. I got 2 more papers for mid-terms. This weekend I shall start to gain back what I have given up long time ago.
I don't see the humor where I knowing my dad might have a bad heart due to block arteries! When mom told me in the car on our back home just now. It hit me hard and yet I held the tears back and just said an "Ouh.." in a cool tone. My eyes were wet and I could hear myself breathing heavily and in my mind was, "Fcuk. again?".
Thinking it would be easier as I been through these situations so many times, it is not. I'm easily bruise, what more bad news about family? Uncle said we've bad genes and that I should start getting back into shape. My mom as usual cool as an ice queen. I know she cares but is just so her to be cold.
I'm the most emotional child in my family. So is like where is Ken? Where is Marcus? All a sudden I have the urge to ask them to come back home. But mom said, no. What can they do. Let them know after dad goes through with surgery. Which hopefully, he doesn't have to. I hate the hospital. I hate the smells. I hate the room. I hate the white dull walls. I guess I just hate seeing the unknown. I hate being not able to do anything when all these years, I've been trying to do everything.
Dad will be doing exercise soon which is really what he needs. And me, I've to get back my stamina that I missed so much but yet couldn't find the determination to see it through. I miss shooting hoops. I miss sparring with opponents. I miss all the training I used to have.
I'm just really messed up now. Can't really think straight. I got 2 more papers for mid-terms. This weekend I shall start to gain back what I have given up long time ago.
Come Away With Me, 8:46 PM,
I'm practicing your nameSo I can say it to your face
It doesn't seem right
To look you in the eye
And let all the things you mean to me
Come tumbling out my mouth
Indeed its time
Tell you why
I say its infinitely true
Say you'll stay
Don't come and go
Like you do
Sway my way
Yeah I need to know
All about you
And there's no cure
And no way to be sure
Why everything turned inside out
Instilling so much doubt
It makes me so tired
I feel so uninspired
My head is battling with my heart
My logic has been torn apart
And now
It all turns sour
Come sweeten every afternoon
Why do people come and go as they please? Why do they only knock on your door when they needed you the most or else no stories at all? I don't know...
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out
You said you read me like a book, but the pages are all torn and frayed
What has been done is done. Why bother giving me a smiley face when I feel a surge of anger after looking at it. Is this bad of me to even feel such anger? What have I become inside deep down? It is not me, it is not what I wanna be.
I never needed you for pointing out my wrongs
I never needed pain, I never needed strength
I never needed you for judgments
I never needed you to question what I spent
I never ask for help, I take care of myself,
And it's a little late for conversations
There isn't anything for you to say
And my eye's hurt, hand's shiver,
So look at me and listen to me because
I don't want to, stay another minute
I don't want you, to say a single word
Hush hush hush hush...
There is no other way, I get the final say because,
I don't want to, do this any longer
I don't want you, there's nothing left to say
Hush hush hush hush...
I've already spoken, our love is broken
I never needed your corrections
On everything from how I act to what I say
I never needed words
I never needed hurts
I never needed you to be there everyday
I'm sorry for the way I let go
From everything I wanted when you came along
But I'm never beaten, broken not defeated
I know next to you is not where I belong
No more trying...
I never needed to put myself through all this crap. So why am I?
You see I am the bravest girl
You will ever come to meet
Yet I shrink down to nothing
At the thought of someone
Really seeing me
I think my heart is wrapped around
And tangled up in winding weeds
But I don't wanna go on living
Being so afraid of showing
Someone else my imperfections
And even though my feet
Are trembling
And every word I say I'm stumbling
I will bare it all... watch me unfold
Unfold
These hands that I hold
Behind my back are
Bound and broken
By my own doing
And I can't feel
Anything anymore
I need a touch to remind me
I'm still real
I wanna be known be brave to stand firmly on my ground. I don't wanna be easily bruise.
Here I am, everyday, since you said, you'd come again
But it's not fair, 'cause you're not here
I wait in vain but nothing has changed
I'm a flower soaking in the rain
If I could wish one thing, I'd hear you call my name again
I'm a dreamer waiting for the sun
But it's not fair, 'cause you're not here
I wait in vain but nothing has changed
I'm a flower soaking in the rain
If I could wish one thing, I'd hear you call my name again
I'm a dreamer waiting for the sun
You were the one I always run to. But what's the point of running when you not even there.
Lately, I been drifting away. Lost focus of things needed to be done.
In the past I've been asking questions but not answer can be given.
Now, its answered but I denied it cause I don't think I deserve it.
In the past I've been asking questions but not answer can be given.
Now, its answered but I denied it cause I don't think I deserve it.
Come Away With Me, 2:26 PM, Sunday, February 22, 2009
Do humans deserve 2nd chances? Better yet, do humans deserve 3rd chance? Or is it strike out? I'm still very much holding on to my past for no reasons or what so ever. My past isn't interesting, isn't sweet, isn't all that happy go lucky nor is it fun. My past was more like, being back stabbed, being the one to take the blame when things go wrong & when it goes great I'm not given the credit. My past is more like me being taken for granted and unappreciated.Since young or rather since I can ever remember I lost my grandma(my dad's mom) then my grandpa(my mom's daddy) then my grandma(also my mom's mommy) to sickness then uncles to accidents. It sad and just scary losing loved ones around me one by one. I grief and cry what's the point. They won't come back. I miss my grandma and how she would just stroke my thighs and asked me, "Ni Ni, eat full d ah? How's school?"(in canto). I miss her.
I miss my sucky crappy back stabbing high school friends as well. They can be so fake yet here I am blogging about then. FCUK la wei. I hate my high school life so badly. I think I mention that before. I just hate how all my years there is just wasted! No happy endings. No laughter's nor moments even for me to look back on and think it is all worth it.
Maybe is because of all these experience. I learnt to capture moments and seize them as it is as tight as I possibly can. I'm frustrated. Again I bleed. Again I scarred. Again I fall. Wasted. Hated. But then again how can you break what's already been broken.
I'm glad that know I'm happy. I'm glad along the hard times and bumpy winding road, I have a few friends that I get call buddies. I guess what suck then is slowly turn out to be not bad for me. Do I deserve it all? Who knows.. I still wish some would just not make me feel this way again. I don't wanna be the sad emo girl. Heck, I'm 19 already. I should be mature no?
At least, I'm able to control my emotions and feelings in reality at college and work. Only at this very place I get to say what I wanna say. Feel what I feel. Write what I wanna write and just let out all my dissatisfaction and frustration here and now. And you do not deserve to judge cause you don't even care. Therefore, you don't deserve to judge nor complaint. Hah! bleh. Who am I kidding la wei. I'm sorry if some of my words hurt you or offended you. I'm just all over the place.
I need a ticket out of this ville I am in now.
Come Away With Me, 11:07 PM, Thursday, February 19, 2009
I find it really hard to not break down and scream my lungs & head out when I particularly stressed out on a subject that I am not good at. I sucked at economics. I just can't wrap my head around it to understand it completely. And I find it so so hard to not snapped at my friends at college as I use to do it with the KYC and high school gang where I just completely keep quiet and my facial expression would be scary.
I guess I'm slightly different when I'm with different group of friends. I feel more comfortable with my college mates for some weird farny awkward reasons which is why I'm gonna so miss my HMC friends! ish. Back to econs, I was kinda depress and just stressed out this afternoon and I apologize to Kar Mun, Jia Huey & KZ for it. Thanks for caring ya! :)
So when I came back home I didn't went straight to shower but instead I have my car a shower to realese some heat and stress. I just went scrubbing the car till its white and clean. Wiped the windows like 3 times. Was a good small workout going on for me. Plus some part of me was still attached to what I said at the previous post before this.
Anyways. Econs seems to be working out fine with baby steps., like finally!! Wheeee.. I kinda always bring myself down when things aren't being done well and not going well, whether is my jod/duty/responsibility or not. Sigh.
At times like this, all I need is a huge giagantic bear hug that squashes and squeeze me till at a point where I know things are gonna be alright and that I've run to my lala land or a spilt second just to bring myself back together again. I need a hug. I want a hug. Can I have a bear bear hug?
I guess I'm slightly different when I'm with different group of friends. I feel more comfortable with my college mates for some weird farny awkward reasons which is why I'm gonna so miss my HMC friends! ish. Back to econs, I was kinda depress and just stressed out this afternoon and I apologize to Kar Mun, Jia Huey & KZ for it. Thanks for caring ya! :)
So when I came back home I didn't went straight to shower but instead I have my car a shower to realese some heat and stress. I just went scrubbing the car till its white and clean. Wiped the windows like 3 times. Was a good small workout going on for me. Plus some part of me was still attached to what I said at the previous post before this.
Anyways. Econs seems to be working out fine with baby steps., like finally!! Wheeee.. I kinda always bring myself down when things aren't being done well and not going well, whether is my jod/duty/responsibility or not. Sigh.
At times like this, all I need is a huge giagantic bear hug that squashes and squeeze me till at a point where I know things are gonna be alright and that I've run to my lala land or a spilt second just to bring myself back together again. I need a hug. I want a hug. Can I have a bear bear hug?
Come Away With Me, 10:12 PM, Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Scarsby
Papa Roach
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And my scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel
Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
All I can say is
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel
I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last stand
I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever come around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause you're drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
And I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand
Go fix yourself
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
For some reason tonight is one of those blue nights where I just feel so unappreciated and not given enough credit for the things that I've done all this while. I felt so misused & used. Not like anyone actually cares right. Just that, I don't know. People can just come up to me and say nobody is putting in an effort to keep in touch anymore and that someone is the link that is why nobody is keeping in touch. Like a big huge WTH & FCUK came to my mind.
I'm mad simply because all that I've done meant nothing to nobody. Like all that I have done was nothing and meaningless tau. Like OUCH people. OUCH! I sacrificed and I know others did. But did they go the through the length as I did? Did they put in as much effort as I did? I'm kinda a follower I personally think at times which I hate cause then I have to go with people likes even though I dislike it.
So yeah. I'm actually kinda speechless yet here I am trying to find words to express how I'm feeling. I'm like miss invisible then and I still am because of you people. And it sucks. Listening to emo songs definitely makes me feel better but then again these are scars tau not scratches but actual scars.
Natalie
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