Come Away With me

Shhhh.. Don't speak till you read. Don't judge till you judge yourself.
Just a place for me to speak freely without anyone breathing down my neck
and just judging who I am and what I write about.
If you do have something to say nonetheless then I shall listen. :]

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So Come Away With Me to my side of the story and hear me out.
Natalie Law

Come Away With Me, 10:55 AM, Saturday, January 31, 2009

Joanna 2nd Debut Album

Released on the 16th of January

This is also by Joanna Wang but with her BAND!

Awesome right?!!!! Go listen to her youtube videos, jeminijem. She is so good at what she does! her voice is so jazzy yet soulful and bubbly fun way! So don't compare her to Norah Jones! So check her out!.I'm gonna get my hands on these 2 albums! Another investment that I'm willing to spend on! Wheeee...

Come Away With Me, 8:51 AM, Friday, January 30, 2009

Couple?
Can't seem to find the right place, dinner and entertainment for this very special day?
You have tight pocket with limited cash?
Wanna make it special and romantic?
We have it all here!

Love LockDown
by
HMC Leads
at
HELP University College
on
the 12th of February, Thursday
from
6:30pm till 11pm

Single?
Feel lonely during this day?
Wanna hang out with other lonely friends just like you?
Come! No worries! No one is ever lonely.
What are friends for right?
Who say as well you can go with your best friend?
Get your friends to gather up and have a quiet night out,
catching up and just chat till dawn!

Wanna date with STYLE?
Let's get back to basic then...
Roses!
Get your date/ secret admirer a ROSE!
Its simple yet means so much.
Old school never fails.

By Bethany Joy Lenz- Honestly
Honestly I didn’t mean to cry so hard,
the heartache was pouring in like rain.
I didn’t mean to show I care.
Honestly I didn’t mean to laugh so loud
but it just sounds so absurd to say that I want you.

Find me in the evening when your ready to dance,
And I will take you to places where you
never thought you'd have the chance to love.
Love,
Love is all we have.
I will run myself in circles here without you.

Please believe that I tried my best to forget you,
but the memories keep flooding back like tears.
I didn’t mean to fall in love,
But sitting here waiting for this is torture.
I'm so glad you're far away
Is that a terrible thing to say?
Well, I wonder if you're ok.

I've tried and tried,
And I can't hide from your love.
Darlin' it's too late to show me your intentions?
You know we’ve got to find a way to get past all the implications, every situation,
Every complication that we've come from.
Love is all we have
I will run myself in circles here without you.

By David Archuleta-Crush
Something happened for the first time deep inside,
It was a rush, what a rush.

'Cause the possibility
That you would ever feel the same way about me,
It's just too little, just so little.

Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I've just got to know...

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't going away.

Has it ever crossed your mind
When we're hanging, spending time, are we just friends?
Is there more, is there more?

See it's a chance we've gotta take
'Cause I believe that we can make this into something that will last
Last forever, forever.

By Amy Pearson- Love Like This
I thought I had the whole thing figured out till I found you,
Didn't wanna waste my time just looking for love.
Thought that I was better off alone,
But I was wrong....

I never knew a love like this,
Finally opened up my eyes,
Never knew just one song,
Could ever wake me up inside.
And I hope it lasts forever,
Cause I'd walk a thousand miles,
Just to feel like this.
I never knew love like this.

Everyday is better than the last when I'm with you.
Don't think I can get much higher.
Every time you come and put your words on me,
Things you say to me,
It just feels so good...

Love like this...
Could make me wanna lose myself in you.
Love like this....
And with you here there's nothing I can't do
Just one word
Cause no one else compares to you,
And it feels true.

I never knew love like this,
I never...
And I hope it lasts forever cause I'd walk a thousand miles,
Just to feel like this,
I never knew love like this.

By Westlife-Us Against The World
Us against the world
Against the world
Us against the world
Against the world

You and I, we’ve been at it so long
I still got the strongest fire
You and I, we still know how to talk
Know how to walk that wire

Sometimes I feel like The world is against me
The sound of your voice,
That's what saves me
When we're together I feel so invincible

Cause it's us against the world
You and me against them all
If you listen to these words
Know that we are standing tall
I don't ever see the day that
I won't catch you when you fall
Cause it's us against the world tonight

Us against the world
Against the world

There’ll be days
We’ll be on different sides but
That doesn’t last too long
We find ways to get it on track
And know how to turn back on

Sometimes I feel
I can’t keep it together
Then you hold me close
And you make it better
When I’m with you
I can feel so unbreakable

Cause it's us against the world
You and me against them all
If you listen to these words
Know that we are standing tall
I don't ever see the day that
I won't catch you when you fall
Cause it's us against the world tonight

We’re not gonna break
Cause we both still believe
We know what we’ve got
And we’ve got what we need alright
We’re doing something right...

By Take That- The Greatest Day
Today this could be, the greatest day of our lives
Before it all ends, before we run out of time
Stay close to me, Stay close to me
Watch the world come alive tonight
Stay close to me.

Tonight this could be the greatest night of our lives
Let's make a new start, The future is ours to find
Can you see it, can you see it in my eyes
Can you feel it now, can you hold it in your arms tonight
Hold on Hold on, Hold on Hold on
Hold On Hold on

Oh stay close to me
Stay close to me
Watch the world come alive tonight
stay closes me

Hold your head high,
Arms open wide
Yea,
The world starts to come alive when you stay close it me

Today this could be the greatest day of our lives.

By Jim Brickman-Never Alone
May the angels protect you
Trouble neglect you
And heaven accept you when it's time to go home
May you always have plenty
The glass never empty
Know in your belly
You're never alone

May your tears come from laughing
You find friends worth having
As every year passes
They mean more than gold
May you win and stay humble
Smile more than grumble
And know when you stumble
You're never alone

Never alone
I'll be in every beat of your heart
When you face the unknown
Wherever you fly
This isn't goodbye
My love will follow you stay with you
You're never alone

Well, I have to be honest
As much as I wanted
I'm not gonna promise that cold winds won't blow
So when hard times have found you
And your fear surrounds you
Wrap my love around you
You're never alone.

By Jim Brickman
I am amazed
When I look at you
I see you smiling back at me
It's like all my dreams come true
I am afraid
If I lost you boy
I'd fall through the cracks
And lose my track in this crazy lonely world

Sometimes it's so hard to believe
When the nights can be so long
And faith gave me the strength
And kept me holding on

You are the love of my life
And I'm so glad you found me
You are the love of my life
Baby put your arms around me
I guess this is how it feels
When you finally find something real
My angel in the night
You are my love
The love of my life

Now here you are
With midnight closing in
You take my hand as our shadows dance
With moon lite on you skin

I look in your eyes
I'm lost inside your words
I think if I'd never met you
About all the things I'd missed

Sometimes it's so hard to believe
when a love can be so strong
and faith gave me the strength
and kept me holding on.

By Rascal Flatts- My Wish
I hope the days come easy and the moments pass slow,
And each road leads you where you wanna go,
And if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.
And if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin' till you find the window,
If it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile.
But more than anything, more than anything...

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

I hope you never look back, but you never forget,
All the ones who love you, in the place you left,
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,
And you help somebody every chance you get,
Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,
And always give more than you take.
But more than anything, yeah, more than anything...

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

By Amy Pearson- Does Anyone
I couldn't come closer
I couldn't let go
Didn't wanna get over you
Don't wanna know what I know
Been counting on angels
Stead of facing the truth
There's dust on my shadow
Cause I'm too afraid to move

Cause we're all willing to be torn in two
with one taste of bliss

Does anybody have a heart?
That isn't made of broken parts
Pieces of love, pieces of pain
No I don't know where to start
Does anybody have a heart?
That doesn't wanna fall in love again
Does anybody have a heart?

If love is a fire
I'm a moth to a flame
and though I've been burned
I'll return over and over again

Everytime this happens
Leads me wanting more

No I dont know where to start
Does anybody have a heart
That doesn't wanna fall in love again

Does anybody have a heart
That isn't made of broken parts

Does anybody have a heart, heart, heart
Does anybody have a heart?

By Marie Digby- Say It Again
The thing about love
Is I never saw it coming
It kinda crept up and took me by surprise
And now there's a voice inside my heart that's got me wondering
Is this true, I want to hear it one more time

Move in a little closer
Take it to a whisper
Just a little louder

Say it again for me
Cuz I love the way it feels when you are telling me that I'm
The only one who blows your mind
Say it again for me
It's like the whole world stops to listen
When you tell me you're in love
Say it again

Thing about you is you know just how to get me
You talk about us like there's no end in sight
The thing about me is that I really want to let you
Open that door and walk into my life

Move in a little closer
Take it to a whisper
Just a little louder

And it feels like it's the first time
That anybody's ever brought the sun without the rain
And never in my whole life
Have I heard words as beautiful as when you say my name

When you tell me you're in love...
Say it again

To: You
From: Me, Natalie

Come Away With Me, 1:11 PM, Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Hey people. Happy Moo Moo Year. It seems that cow and ox are the same! They MOOO MOOO~ the same way so they are the same but different name. Weird sial! Because I asked my mom is it Ox or Cow? She said is the same. SWT!!

Anyways Chinese New Year this year is AWESOME mainly and actually because Mun & Wai is back to celebrate with us! With Wai Yee back from Australia as well is the whipped cream on top of the cake! The Ong's came together for reunion dinner and the Law decided to join as well. Its been so long since I seen Mun & Wai. Thanks to Mun & Wai for celebrating my birthday 45 mintues before 12am! Love you guys. Loved the cake even though my stomach wasn't feeling well that night after the reunion dinner.

Anyways other than that nothing special or worth being excited or worth being remembered has happen during Chinese New Year and my 19th Birthday. My birthday is just any ordinary day. Don't bother or care about it cause is just nothing special. I don't try to make it special. So why bother la. Its just the day where I was born nothing more than that. Nothing fantastic about that.

Birthday is one of these days where I get disappointed. I don't know about other people la. But for me it is. See la.. I say I don't bother but yet I get disappointed. Stupid la me! Ahhhh. Its not about the presents, gifts or cakes tau. Its about the thought to make a simple and easy effort. But to hell with it la right.

So yeah. Basically my 1st day of Chinese New Year which is my 19th Birthday is nothing special at all people same goes with my 2nd. Some say have more ang paus la. Some say this and that la. Like is gonna be a special day like that. I say WHATEVER LA aite. Plus I'm back at college and here I am blogging at college. The irony la wei.

I shall not sulk and dwell myself in all these. Which is why I learn it from the best who taught me not to bother and couldn't care less. "Thank You". I sort of hate you for this. I hate myself for this moreover.

Disappointed as I am, you will never realize
Natalie

Come Away With Me, 3:36 PM, Saturday, January 24, 2009

I just realize something. So what I am a ROCK STAR and I don't need you! LOL!. Joking. I was saying that I realize I don't get easily mad. Yes I do get angry easily but not mad. For mad it takes like a period of time to get over the bloody thing or someone for doing something or like finally not mad at myself for certain things.

Like what's the point of being mad? It shows that I freaking blardy care la! What else? I suka suka je waste my time and energy being mad right? Wth.. Some wait.. Most for the matter of fact thinks is a waste of time, right? Well whatever then. I think that it is not a waste of energy if it worth being mad. Some of us including me of course, get negelected, forgotten and being taken lightly. Is like nevermind attitude that she/he will understand la.

Well, it isn't that easy aite. It hurts. It stinks so badly to be disappointed. For me, the feeling of being let down sucks. A few times is alright by me but for so many times till I don't even know how long have I been mad for it. That's just bad mojo. It's like why am I person who also being stood up. I know some of you feel this way too.

Being disappointed for so many times then being let down by the people you loved and care. OUCH! I repeat OUCH! Damn that hurts. Move in a little closer then you will able to feel how I feel. I do believe in karma and maybe that is why I feeling this way cause I done the samething too to others? But takkan sampai these much right I disappointed people.

Sigh. I always scream in my mind, "COME ON!!". Give me a break will you. Being balanced isn't easy I know. We all are only just human right. So why must this happen over and over again. How long more can my patience and tolerance hold on. The true question is. How can I hold on if you keep doing this... How long more must I have to put up with all of these. How long more...

It hurts, but you don't even know that

Natalie

Come Away With Me, 6:16 PM, Saturday, January 17, 2009

The following photos are the album cover on my facebook for all the gatherings and outings from December'08 till January 13th '09. So please my peeps. You know who you are. Feel free to tagged youself with any of them that you think is best and you liked it. 3 more albums are coming real soon I hope. Which are Ken & Eva Farewell Gathering 2 album, New Year Eve'08 Fireworks and The Last Goodbyes to Ken & Eva on the 13th of January'09. So watch out for these coming albums alright.

I'm sorry once more for uploading all these photos so late. I apologize as well for not taking good photos as some of them were really shaky and blur. I'm still not good with my baby yet. By the way, if you guys have any suggestion to what I should name my baby. Please let me know. I can't seem to find the perfect right name for it.

PS: I won't be blogging about the events cause blogger is giving some problems and it takes up too much of my time. So just grab them from my Facebook aite. If any of you don't like them then don't bother. :)

Album Covers on Facebook

Ken & Eva Farewell Gathering

New Year Eve'08

Dinner with Mun Mun

Nisha's in TOWN

Nisha's in Town 2

This very blog post is dedicated to KEN my little brother and Eva who are in their respective host family. I miss you both dearly... Hugs.

You guys take care of yourself reall good now if you ever read this. It's only 6 months but I already miss you guys specially my little brother. I will take care of mom and dad till you get back to take care of them with me aite.

Loads of loves and hugs,

Sis

Nigel Law Ken Lam
also known as
The Great Sexylicious, Kenalicious.
also known as
Ken

Eva Woon Ee Hwa

Photographed by,

Amateur Photographer

Natalie Law

Come Away With Me, 5:53 PM,

The song I love so much has 2 remix already now. Beyonce's If I Were A Boy was being replied by the male which are R Kelly & Lee Carr with different lyrics from both man. Check them out. Download them. The song is now more meaningful then ever before.

And currently besides these 2 songs are what I've been listening over and over again. I've been listening to Superhuman by Chris Brown & Keri Hilson as well. I'm so addicted to Superman that I love songs like Superwoman, Superman and now Superhuman.

If I Were A Boy (Remix)
by
Beyonce feat R Kelly

If I were a boy
even just for a day
I'd roll out of bed in the morning
and throw on what I wanted and go

Drink beer with the guys
and chase after girls
I'd kick it with who I wanted
and I'd never get confronted for it
cause they stick up for me

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man
I'd listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

(R. Kelly)
If you were a boy
then girl you'd understand
you need to stop listening to your friends
love, respect and trust your man

So I go to clubs with the guys
and sometimes flirt with the girls
I should be able to roll out
as long as Im coming home to you
and give you the world

But you are not a boy,
so you dont have a clue (ey)
How I work and pay the bills
girl everything I do is for you (eh eh)

(Beyonce)
I'd listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a Boy (Beyonce)

If I were a Girl (Kelly)

I would turn off my phone (Beyonce)

I wouldn't play games (Kelly)

Tell everyone it's broken
so they'd think that I was sleeping alone (Beyonce)

Girl you know thats wrong (Kelly)

I’d put myself first
and make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she’ll be faithful,
waiting for me to come home, to come home.

But you are not a boy,
so you can't understand
You are not a perfect woman
and I am not a perfect man (remix,remix)

I'd listen to her (eh eh)
Cause I know how it hurts (Kelly: and I know how you feel)
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

Kelly: Said Im sorry

It's a little too late for you to come back

but I cant let you go
cause Im too attached (Kelly)

If you thought I would wait for you
you thought wrong

But you're just a boy.

If You Were Boy/If I Were A Girl (Remix)
by
Beyonce feat Lee Carr

If I were a boy
even just for a day
I'd roll out of bed in the morning
and throw on what I wanted and go
Drink beer with the guys
and chase after girls

I'd kick it with who I wanted
and I'd never get confronted for it
cause they'd stick up for me

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
how it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man

I'd listen to her
cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

(Lee Carr)
If I were a girl
even just for a day
I'd get out of bed in the morning
and take forever to get ready

Complain to my friends
as if they got a man
They talk about you cause they're jealous
and I just stay and listen to it (I should get rid of them)

If I were a girl
I dont think I'd understand
how it feels to love a boy
I swear I'd be a better woman

I'd listen to him
cause I don't know everything
I would always try to tell him that he needs to treat me better
Like I don't gotta change at all
If I were a girl

(Beyonce)
It's a little too late for you to come back
Say it's just a mistake, think I'd forgive you like that? (I don't)
If you thought I would wait for you,
you thought wrong (I did wrong)

But you're just a boy (Beyonce)
and you're just a girl (Lee Carr)

(Beyonce)
You don't understand
No you don't understand
How it feels to love a girl someday
You wish you were a better man
You don't listen to her
and you don't listen to him (Lee Carr)

You don't care how it hurts (you don't care how I feel)
Until you lose the one you wanted
cause he's taking you for granted (Lee Carr)
And everything you had got destroyed

But you're just a boy
and you're just a girl

If I Were A Boy,

Natalie

Come Away With Me, 4:08 PM,

I'm so SORRY!!

I can't upload photos on Facebook nor BLOG!!!

I'm not being lazy. Serious! I've been trying at college and home!

Don't know what's wrong! I'm gonna keep trying. Specially FACEBOOK!

So if I'm able to upload it on Facebook. I will either Tag u or u tag urself aite people!

If not I will do it at college on their computers!

So SORRY you guys! :(

I miss Ken by the way people. Seeing his bed empty every night. Knowing he won't be home when I'm back from college or work. SUCKS! Knowing he doesn't work with me as well SUCKS!

Natalie

Come Away With Me, 3:16 PM, Monday, January 12, 2009

For some of you might already know. My lil bro Ken the Kenalicious The Great Sexylicious is leaving to USA to meet with Obama for 6 months! His flight is at 11:59pm Tuesday night! So call him if any of you want to.

I feel sad actually. Takkan I show to everyone right. I'm gonna miss him of course but I do not wanna cry wei. Hopefully I don't. Writing this post now I'm having wet eyes already. I just wanna thanks to the few people who made it all the way down from KL, Subang and Kajang to my place. And some from One Utama. I love you guys like seriously! Near or far you guys came for Ken. He is so so LUCKY to have you guys there! As well as Eva. For those who can't make it. Ken loves you guys still as well as me and we know you guys love us too. Abby no dungeon for you girl!

6 months sounds long but it isn't. I'm gonna just hush through these 6 months till he gets back and tells me all about his trip there. =) so yeah. Don't cry people. It's only 6 months. Who am I blardy bloody KIDDING! I'm gonna tear tomorrow!

Gonna MISS you Ken Ken~!

Come Away With Me, 9:32 AM, Tuesday, January 6, 2009

1st I wanna just let a huge SIGH out. I'm back at college. 1st day is always boring.
No interactions with new faces. Just sitting at the spot you picked. Boring...
Ice breaker don't work as well as you thought it would at college. Sigh again.
But hey at least I've new friends to come right? Yeah.

Any suggestions for me to do on my 1st day/1st week at college?
1st class of Marketing is down. Class officially starts tomorrow.
Econs in like an HOUR & a HALF. So here I am la. Blogging. Facebook-ing.
What else can I do wei. After Econs drive home and do some house chores.
Then I wanna have a NAP.

To some of you that have no clue about how my new life will be going about.
Its gonna be like this...

Monday to Friday CLASSES at HELP HMC. (come visit me. Fish me out for lunch)

Friday right after class at 11am. RUSH to work which is at Time Square!

Saturday work also!

Sunday do most of the house chores. College work.

Most of the nights will be doing house chores as well, if mom asked.

So how's my this year schedule? Awesome no? Sigh again.
Yes it does have its upside but also downside wei.
I will be spending less time texting to friends who I care & love.
Which I already DO ever since I started work and college last year.

I will definitely try to do more outings these year
compare to last year where I did nothing really. Disappointing. I know.
I will promise to spend more time with friends this year.
I got a lot of catching up to do with some and also try to maintain some.
Things like these are easy to be said then done. sigh.
but no worries people. I got a long list of resolutions for these year.
I will be in check always!

And CALLING out to PEOPLE out there. Who knows KEN my lil brother!
He has like less than a week now before he goes for his AFS camp and to USA for 6 months.

You guys have like Wednesday to Saturday now. So contact me if you can come to my place on Saturday night!

Natalie

Come Away With Me, 5:11 PM, Friday, January 2, 2009

Jennifer Chung Original Music Video

I Don't Know, Let's Sing

She finally uploaded her 1st music video. Which was in production for 4 months. Its worth the WAIT I say! I love it. It's the BEST homemade video ever! Her songs always made my day. I just love her songs. And now she has this video. Even more awesome!
Well here you go people. Check it out. Watch it. Its really really good. I know most of you have high expectations in music. But music is really universal. If you don't like it then oppps we don't have this in common then. What the heck. I LOVE IT! Its all that matter.

Natalie Martinez

Natalie Imbruglia

Natalie Portman

These are the singer and actresses I know who are name by Natalie. Awesome no. They are all so pretty/beautiful/talented and everything else. Maybe one day my name will be famous as something I am passionate about and damn good at doing it just like the Natalie's above.

Natalie

Come Away With Me, 11:42 AM,

We Are Broken
by
Paramore

I am outside
And I've been waiting for the sun
And with my wide eyes
I've seen worlds that don't belong
My mouth is dry with words I cannot verbalize
Tell me why we live like this

Keep me safe inside
Your arms like towers
Tower over me

Yeah
Cause we are broken
What must we do to restore
Our innocence
And oh the promise we adored
Give us life again cause we just wanna be whole

Lock the doors
Cause I'd like to capture this voice
That came to me tonight
So everyone will have a choice
And under red lights
I'll show myself it wasn't forged
We're at war
We live like this

Keep me safe inside
Your arms like towers
Tower over me

Cause we are broken
What must we do to restore
Our innocence
And oh the promise we adored
Give us life again cause we just wanna be whole

Tower over me
Tower over me

And I'll take the truth at any cost

Cause we are broken
What must we do to restore
Our innocence
And oh the promise we adored
Give us life again cause we just wanna be whole

Until Tomorrow
by
Paramore

I climb, I slip, I fall
Reaching for your hands
But I lay here all alone
Sweating all your blood

If I could find out how
To make you listen now
Because I'm starving for you here
With my undying love and I
... I will

Breathe for love tomorrow
Cause there's no hope for today
Breathe for love tomorrow
Cause maybe there's another way

I climb, I slip, I fall
Reaching for your hands
But I lay here all alone
Sweating all your blood

If I could find out how
To make you listen now
Because I'm staving for you here
With my undying love and I
... I will

Breathe for love tomorrow
Cause there's no hope for today
Breathe for love tomorrow
Cause maybe there's another way

I Climb, I Slip, I Fall
Into your empty hands
But I lay here all alone
Sweating all your blood

Never Let This Go
by
Paramore

Maybe if my heart stops beating
It won't hurt this much
And never will I have to answer
Again to anyone

Please don't get me wrong

Because I'll never let this go
But I can't find the words to tell you
I don't want to be alone
But now I feel like I don't know you

One day you'll get sick of
Saying that everything's alright
And by then I'm sure I'll be pretending
Just like I am tonight

Please don't get me wrong

Because I'll never let this go
But I can't find the words to tell you
I don't want to be alone
But now I feel like I don't know you

Let this go, let this go

But I'll never let this go
But I can't find the words to tell you
I don't want to be alone
But now I feel like I don't know you

And I'll never let this go
I can't find the words to tell you
That now I feel like I don't know you

Here We Go
by
Paramore

And here we go again
With all the things we said
And not a minute spent
To think that we'd regret
So we just take it back,
These words and hold our breath
Forget the things we swore we meant

I'll write you just to let you know that I'm alright
Can't say I'm sad to see you go
Cause I'm not. (No, I'm not)
Well, I'm not.

And here we go again
With all the things we did
And now I'm wondering
Just who would I have been
To be the one attached
At all times to your hip?
Forget the things we swore we meant.

I'll write you just to let you know that I'm alright
Can't say I'm sad to see you go
Cause I'm not. (No, I'm not)
Well, I'm not. (No, I'm not)
Oh (No, I'm not)

I'll write you to, to let you know that I'm alright
Can't say I'm sad to see you go
Cause I'm not. (No, I'm not)
Well, I'm not. (No, I'm not)
I'm not, I'm not.

And here we go again
With all the things we said
And not a minute spent
To think that we'd regret
So we just take it back...
So we just take it back...
(No, I'm not)
So we just take it back...
(I'm not)
So we just take it back...

My Heart
by
Paramore

I am finding out that maybe I was wrong
That I've fallen down and I can't do this alone

Stay with me,
This is what I need,
Please.

Sing us a song and we'll sing it back to you
We could sing our own but what would it be without you?

I am nothing now and it's been so long
Since I've heard the sound, the sound of my only hope

This time I will be listening.

This heart, it beats, beats for only you

This heart, it beats, beats for only you
My heart is yours

This heart, it beats, beats for only you
My heart is yours
(My heart, it beats for you)

This heart, it beats, beats for only you (It beats, beats for only you)
My heart is yours (My heart is yours)

This heart, it beats, beats for only you (Please don't go now, please don't fade away)
My heart, my heart is yours (Please don't go now, please don't fade away)

(Please don't go now, please don't fade away) My heart is yours
(Please don't go now, please don't fade away) My heart is yours
(Please don't go, please don't fade away)
(Please don't go now, please don't fade away) My heart is...

Pressure
by
Paramore

Tell me where our time went
And if it was time well spent
Just don't let me fall asleep
Feeling empty again

'Cause I fear I might break
And I fear I can't take it
Tonight I'll lay awake, feeling empty

I can feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
We're better off without you
I can feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
We're better off without you

Now that I'm losing hope
And there's nothing else to show
For all of the days that we spent
Carried away from home

Somethings I'll never know
And I had to let them go
I'm sitting all alone, feeling empty

I can feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
We're better off without you
I can feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
We're better off without you

Somethings I'll never know, and I had to let them go
Somethings I'll never know, and I had to let them go
I'm sitting all alone feeling empty

I can feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
We're better off without you
Feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
You're better off with out me

What a way to start the 2nd day of 2009 isn't it with sad songs of Paramore. I don't know why but their songs just made me feel somehow whole for now. I feel deep into the songs above for their words. I'm not sure what's going on with me now. I need someone. I feel alone and lonely with all this emptiness I'm feeling now. I didn't have the white christmas I hoped for. I didn't go through the New Year from the old as I hoped as well.

Sorry for blogging bout such sad post. It just how I'm feeling now. Losing my cool I certainly am. I can't wait to get back to college then work. This way I'm only certain that I will not feel this way due to all the busy-ness. Its my runaway place. My secret hiding place from all my feelings, emotions and reality.

Even still. I won't give up trying with all my might and heart to capture all the moments that made you guys and me happy even though is for a brief period of time. I live on these moments. And frankly its why I can be me now.

Natalie