Come Away With me

Shhhh.. Don't speak till you read. Don't judge till you judge yourself.
Just a place for me to speak freely without anyone breathing down my neck
and just judging who I am and what I write about.
If you do have something to say nonetheless then I shall listen. :]

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So Come Away With Me to my side of the story and hear me out.
Natalie Law

Come Away With Me, 11:51 PM, Sunday, June 29, 2008

I came to this world. Your world.
Hoping I could learn a bit bout how to give and take
But since I came here, felt the joy and the fear
Finding myself making every possible mistake

See I'm a young soul in this very strange world
Hoping I could learn a bit bout what is true and fake
But why all this hate, this problems and trouble? Try to communicate
Finding trust and love is not always easy to make

Cause you don't understand
Everything I have done
Why's everything so wrong?

But since I came here, felt the joy and the fear
Finding myself making every possible mistake

Come Away With Me, 9:54 PM,

Round and round we go again. Always. Your friend might be right. Don't think I will ever change. I can try and try but end up same results same issues back all over again. So save the hassel. Same the trouble. Save the letters. Save the pain. Though we never fight. We don't fight. We will not fight. And all. To me its just the same. I'm here defending you there trying to explain. Ken even ask,"Whats wrong with you and ****?".

We don't hug much then we don't hug much now. Why don't start then and why start now. Its all I can say. I'm used it. Like an habit? Or maybe me giving crap again and it isn't what I really wanna say. Not like its takes hours or days or I don't wanna hug you. Its just felt weird for that moment.

You know what. Damn me. Darn me. Me my words always never comes out right or how I want it instead the other way. Stupid me cause I need to go fro drama classes or acting class to control and express my right gestures. I need counseling. HELP is great for that.

Its always back at point one. Me. Its always moving up and down back to middle. Left to right always middle. Moving in circle, rectangle, triangle, oval and etc always back to center point. Everytime we talk bout these things or touch bout these things. Your point are alike. Moving forward and think of it these way instead of that.

Its my problem so I should learn it and slove it myself. If I can why bother you or involve you with it even though it might relate to you. I don't show it and when I do. I make mistakes and these happens again. If I don't blog I will write and burn the letter so only heaven will know.

I said before silence between us. I find it alright. You doing all the talking I ain't got nothing to complain and if I said you always do all the talking and not listening its just humor but yet it ended up differently. It wasn't humor but something else right. So I choose to just keep quiet and listen. I can just listen and node my head or just by replying "umm. ahh. oh..." n etc like that and go through the hours or anything. You don't have to ask me cause you know I will say, "nothing." Thats my fav word when people or any one asks me. Nothing.

Lousy friend? Not the right way to put it. From where I stand and see. Its me who is the one aite. I'm the cause of all these anyways. So why say you are the lousy friend. When clearly written on my head, my gestures and my words says, "I'm a lousy friend." So what if I have stars in a bottle for you. Or I make good coffee. Every words that comes out from my mouth, my gestures and expressions are wrong and ends up taking all the good things we have and had away. Like our 1st tattoo together. The sleepovers. The camp where it all started. All taken away by who. By me. Myself.

Basically. I'm living in your words. Your replies in your letters. Wanna know what I really feel? I feel scared. Insecure. Fustrated of myself that causes all these. I don't take that step to open up cause I don't know how and just afraid. I'm not used to it. Not with family nor with friends as well.

Letters & text stops here. Replies to letters & text stops here. Even post like these stops here. Only photos will talk. My thoughts shall be kept. Only stars will tell. Feelings will be hid. Only at night it shall glow. If stars in bottle don't work or count as how I truly feel then at least I wanna keep it as a good memory for you and me that we once had.

I wannt put to an end of all these now. No more. No more. No stress. No stress. No more nothing. Don't wanna give you the gesture I give or say things that just end up bring all these up once more. How can it be simple just simple when these keep popping out right. So yeah. All of these has to stop or at least come to an end. For us to have a normal simple friendship sister relationship.

Its my fault for all these. Who ask me to be so defensive and offensive. I thought I lose touch of my taek-kwon-do nd basketball skills of defense and offense. So since I'm the cause of it all. I'm the case. I shall close this case. So we could both be easy off after this post. =)

What I write doesn't matter. What I say doesn't matter. How my gesture is doesn't matter. In this post doesn't matter. Cause it always comes out wrong and I hurt you in more than one way than another. Always. What matters is what happens after this post where you and I can be fine and I learn from all my mistakes, that's all I want to care about. So yeah. I want you to be happy cause you can and you will no matter what despite all these. So go be happy. Do what you like and as you please. Its your life. If in this post again I say things wrongly or give another one of those gestures. I didn't mean it. Sorry. I apologize. At the end of this post still to everything that is going through or had happen, I still don't know... End.

Come Away With Me, 8:46 PM, Thursday, June 26, 2008

Am i good ENOUGH? To have what it takes to be a photographer.

Black and White is dedicated once more to you. BnW.

Come & have The Starbucks Experience. Its everywhere.

The light touches earth

Then when i say...

I shall never ever leave any of you...

Forever & Ever

Together gether.

My name is Cutie.

Cutie it is then. =D its on this puppy's butt la..

Its for you.

This is the one that will glow in your room with the rest...

Wish Upon A Star I Shall..

Is this the heart-shape? They love breakdancing and hiop hope with their hearts.

My train is here finally... But Where are you..

Krypotonite! Where's my girl to save me ah? Hehehe.

Its about someone for once. Wasn't about you. I know you feel so and you the other one feel so but it isn't. I passed. Getting my license next Friday. Car is ready to go to the hospital

Come Away With Me, 8:23 PM,

I can't help being nothing to people. I can't help feeling like crap and shit to people. I can't help feeling all these. Its sucks. And best of all it's just lame and draggy. Stop la stop I keep telling myself yet why do tears fall down like a pipe burst.

Enough is enough I tell myself but why la why does my heart still ache from the scars that was left behind and the new ones just hurts even more. Seeing some friends going through the same as me is like shit why people do this to people.

Sucks la. Really. People judge I judge. People critic I critic. Never ending circle. Goes on and on. Round and round. Wanna make it go away also can't also hard. Damn la. Damn me. Damn life.

I can only give my life and show you all I am in the breath I breathe but is that good enough. I feel like I'm never was good enough for most of you. Say I'm good enough. Say I'm something. Say I'm...

Come Away With Me, 2:33 PM, Wednesday, June 25, 2008

Superwoman
We don't talk the way we used to talk
It's hurting' so deep
I've got my pride, I will not cry
But it's making' me weak.

I'm not your superwoman
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down
And think that every thing's okay
I am only human...

You're just going through the motions
And you're not being fair
I've got my pride, I will not cry
Still I can't help but care.

Look into the corners of your mind
I'll always be there for you through good and bad times
But I can't be that superwoman that you want me to be.

If you feel it in your heart
And you understand me
Stop right where you are.

Superwoman
Everywhere I'm turning
Nothing seems complete
I stand up and I'm searching
For the better part of me
I hang my head from sorrow
Slave to humanity
I wear it on my shoulders
Gotta find the strength in me

Even when I'm a mess
I still put on a vest
With an S on my chest

When I'm breaking down
And I can't be found
And I start to get weak
Cause no one knows
Me underneath these clothes
But I can fly...

Finally I've fallen. Fallen sick I meant. High fever. Heat all over my body. I was hot till I can feel my d heat was left and absord by bed, blanket, and pillows. Even when I breathe I feel my head compressing itself like is pain wei. Well I was able to recover all within the night so its good cause in mt family they take longer around days to recover.

Come Away With Me, 3:59 PM, Tuesday, June 24, 2008

1. Six People to Tag. The victims are
Praevina/Sis
You-Ree/Ureeeya/GF
Ming Wai
Dila
Josh

Leaving the Last name empty

2. Six Things I'm Passionate About
- Photography
- Movies/TV
- Musics
- Friends
- Family
- My Job

3. Six Things I Say Too Often
- WTH
- Fish!
- Whatever la
- Sheet
- Slap you then you know...
- You okay ah.

4. Six Books I've Read Recently
Galaxy and all my college text books. Boring no? I know. bleh.

5. Six Songs I can Listen to Again and Again
Six is not enough la...

6. Six Things I Learnt in the Past Year
Not to be so stupid?
Not to say yes but more NO
Must save money to get what you want in life
Taking no one for granted but appreciate them always
Don't sleep till the cows come home cause it makes me fat said my father
I suck at so so many things. That's why I have issues and I'm a mess. Lol. jk. =D

Come Away With Me, 8:16 AM, Monday, June 16, 2008

I'm going.. Home